Emotional upheaval again. It started up yesterday. I was just doing my sewing, and very well too, while listening to the video series Michael Tsarion on Media Monarchy, when some thoughts and feelings started flowing through me and they were sharp, deep, and hard hitting. I kept working but I knew that the waves were coming on stronger and I needed to stop and just relax, to pay attention to what was going on within me. So I put down all my work and sat down to take a closer look at what was going on.
There is so much love, and there is also much pain. When I see all that has happened to all of us, it makes me cringe within in emotional pain. I just love everyone so much and I know we're all going through some deep changes at this point. I just want to send out the message that I'm listening to all of you, feeling you...I'm with you, and I send you all my love to help you get through it too. There are all kinds of beings helping me, and they're so beautiful. They're helping you too, I know it. We can do this, get past all the ignorant brainwashing that has been done to us, that we've allowed to go on for so long. We will get through it by knowledge, by standing up and being sovereign, claiming our own existence, and stop being rudely manipulated by ignorant beings. And perhaps one day we can teach the ignorant beings to get knowledge too, and they would be well again also. There is no blaming anyone. There is only work. And it must be done. We need order, organization, and cleanliness in this place, in this Universe. The whole place is a mess and it needs to be cleaned. Only then can we understand what love is.
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Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
It's Ultra Vaulking Blac, But it's not beyond Comprhension.
Now, think about it. It doesn't matter what you want, it's what you need. So. Would there be a lady out there and a man out there with the same needs to be taking into consideration on both sides, and thank fully, they did. . . then obviously it would not matter who the fuck you're with, or what the hell they look like. The most important thing would be, how you deal with it. Ok. Fine. I'm skirting the issue. The thing which would happen would be a chemical reaction which you could not ignore. The main thing that would be happening in a positive situation would be that a need is being taken care of.
SO what do you do? You take care of it.
You gather your courage, and you say to yourself you will perform, no matter what it takes, of you. Which is usually not much, when you have gone this far to know what I'm talking about. My goodness, the slackadaisyackle that goes on to day.
Anyway. Whatever. This sustenance we are talking about has everything to do with elementals. And Elements are Who I'm talking about.
I only put it in capitols because I felt they were worth it. Why wouldn't you respect something or someone who is capable of most pleasant change? Why not? Well being ignorant never got you far did it? So that would be why someone would put the elements out of context. Because of ignorance. No more. Let us respect the magnificent brilliance of the Fixed Signs. The Elementals. The Elements. THe fucking elephants. Hahahaa. WHo aM i talking about?
Love you all to daath.
Good day.
SO what do you do? You take care of it.
You gather your courage, and you say to yourself you will perform, no matter what it takes, of you. Which is usually not much, when you have gone this far to know what I'm talking about. My goodness, the slackadaisyackle that goes on to day.
Anyway. Whatever. This sustenance we are talking about has everything to do with elementals. And Elements are Who I'm talking about.
I only put it in capitols because I felt they were worth it. Why wouldn't you respect something or someone who is capable of most pleasant change? Why not? Well being ignorant never got you far did it? So that would be why someone would put the elements out of context. Because of ignorance. No more. Let us respect the magnificent brilliance of the Fixed Signs. The Elementals. The Elements. THe fucking elephants. Hahahaa. WHo aM i talking about?
Love you all to daath.
Good day.
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Sunday, December 26, 2010
Modern Day Vampires
From the VamPires of old to the Vampires of today. All the stories out there of vampires are just fairytales describing what the real vampires are like. So what you need to do is to read, watch, listen between lines, pictures, storytellers stories. Do you Understand?
Part 1 Eustace Mullins talks about the New World Order
The Constitution Con
From the Eustace Mullins talks the fourth video he mentions how Hitler used sodium fluoride in the drinking water to numb the humans into submission, that is why it was so easy for him to control such a large population of all kinds. I found an article on the web which talks about the dangers of fluoride in your water, toothpaste and whatever other products 'they' put it in. Here's an excerp with the link underneath.
"The German chemists worked out a very ingenious and far-reaching plan of mass-control which was submitted to and adopted by the German General Staff. This plan was to control the population in any given area through mass medication of drinking water supplies. By this method they could control the population in whole areas, reduce population by water medication that would produce sterility in women, and so on. In this scheme of mass-control, sodium fluoride occupied a prominent place."
The Truth About 'Fluoride'
Part 1 Eustace Mullins talks about the New World Order
The Constitution Con
From the Eustace Mullins talks the fourth video he mentions how Hitler used sodium fluoride in the drinking water to numb the humans into submission, that is why it was so easy for him to control such a large population of all kinds. I found an article on the web which talks about the dangers of fluoride in your water, toothpaste and whatever other products 'they' put it in. Here's an excerp with the link underneath.
"The German chemists worked out a very ingenious and far-reaching plan of mass-control which was submitted to and adopted by the German General Staff. This plan was to control the population in any given area through mass medication of drinking water supplies. By this method they could control the population in whole areas, reduce population by water medication that would produce sterility in women, and so on. In this scheme of mass-control, sodium fluoride occupied a prominent place."
The Truth About 'Fluoride'
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Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas, This December 25, 2010.
Yes yes. Immerse thyn selv in the art of blood.
Dracula, 1931
Dracula (2009)
Bloody Pit of Horror (1965)
Dracula Has Risen From The Grave
Countess Dracula
The She Beast
Dark Prince The True Story of Dracula 2000
Dracula, 1931
Dracula (2009)
Bloody Pit of Horror (1965)
Dracula Has Risen From The Grave
Countess Dracula
The She Beast
Dark Prince The True Story of Dracula 2000
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010
The Mechanics of Mind Control
This link is to a radio show, TruthFrequencyRadio.com, talking with Michael Tsarion about how the world is mind controlled. His site is MichaelTsarion.com and another website of his is ArchitectsOfControl.com
This is 1 of 7.
Mind Control Metachild Michael Tsarion 1
And here's another video series that talks about the subject of mind control
Michael Tsarion - Architects of Control Program 1 part 1 of 16(480p)
This is 1 of 7.
Mind Control Metachild Michael Tsarion 1
And here's another video series that talks about the subject of mind control
Michael Tsarion - Architects of Control Program 1 part 1 of 16(480p)
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Monday, December 20, 2010
Good Bye to Traditional Breakfasts.
Bacon, ham and eggs, and butter on your toast? All products of the industry of torture and illness. Your traditional breakfast is a poison to you. It changed almost over night, back in the 1940ies they weren't doing the beastly things they are doing now to your traditional breakfast. And all in the name of their god, money.
Undercover at Smithfield Foods
Cruelty to Hens at California's Gemperle Farms
There's a better way to eat. One in which you get an assortment of not only delicious foods, nutritious as well, you remember?...the stuff that makes you feel great and alive because it gives you good health. There are many great recipes. I started at home experimenting. I make a pot of dark red kidney beans, create something for dinner, then store the rest for the next day and start it off with breakfast. For a quick breakfast; whole grain corn chips with mashed kidney bean spread on it, and salsa on top with some jalapeno, olives and diced tomato with chopped greens.
Vegetarian Mexican Green Burrito
Good experimenting to you. Have a lovely breakfast!
Undercover at Smithfield Foods
Cruelty to Hens at California's Gemperle Farms
There's a better way to eat. One in which you get an assortment of not only delicious foods, nutritious as well, you remember?...the stuff that makes you feel great and alive because it gives you good health. There are many great recipes. I started at home experimenting. I make a pot of dark red kidney beans, create something for dinner, then store the rest for the next day and start it off with breakfast. For a quick breakfast; whole grain corn chips with mashed kidney bean spread on it, and salsa on top with some jalapeno, olives and diced tomato with chopped greens.
Vegetarian Mexican Green Burrito
Good experimenting to you. Have a lovely breakfast!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Ultra Black Sunshine Mix!
White Zombie-Thunder Kiss '65 (The Diabolical Ramrodder Remix)
White Zombie-Black Sunshine
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This is the donning of the age of aquarius. In utha werds, put your fuckin clothing on.
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White Zombie-Black Sunshine
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This is the donning of the age of aquarius. In utha werds, put your fuckin clothing on.
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God. Ok. Now we're back to back talking ... to one another.
So humans. Have you thought about it?
This genius stuff?
Would it be too much for you?
Or, would you like to handle it?
Very good now. It is a Saturday. A Saturn day. A black colour. A sixth in running whether it is correct or not for all views, hahahahahaaa..... nevermind. It's what it is. To day.
To night...yea....I will show you around where you've nevah been before. Just show me the faith and there's your ticket. You don't got the money, I don't got the honey, baby. Stick real well with me, and you'll get along.
Thenext thing I would like to talk about, are turtles.
I love turtles. They are chocolatee yum fun fne things. They don't pay the rent to become whole again. Move it. Faster. Thank you.
The best thing, nothing next to the next thing...is to be alive...for all time...oh, in this ole humble body which you were taught is so humble it isn't worth your egotistical spiritual self to enter and take part in.
Huh?
Hahahaha.
Oh I must apologize. I bet you have no idea what I am talking about. Wherefore...my apologies.
I've got the hand of an Iron Man. Would I to gamble, it would be wicked.
Know your elements.
Hahaha! Fuck this shasta. It's too good to go through. I would like to thank you wayward spirit who showed me the dull things that were happening under that berg. Hahaha. I should have known, to not bring that situation into the spotlight.
Gurdjieff's words: "Man is refreshed not by the quantity but by the quality of sleep„sleep little without regret."
You know? I went to sleep last night at around 7:00am. Then I woke up at 10:30am. Gurdjieff sounds to be correct! I have tons of energy. I feel wonderfully great. I love it!
Have a fun Saturday you too people.
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This genius stuff?
Would it be too much for you?
Or, would you like to handle it?
Very good now. It is a Saturday. A Saturn day. A black colour. A sixth in running whether it is correct or not for all views, hahahahahaaa..... nevermind. It's what it is. To day.
To night...yea....I will show you around where you've nevah been before. Just show me the faith and there's your ticket. You don't got the money, I don't got the honey, baby. Stick real well with me, and you'll get along.
Thenext thing I would like to talk about, are turtles.
I love turtles. They are chocolatee yum fun fne things. They don't pay the rent to become whole again. Move it. Faster. Thank you.
The best thing, nothing next to the next thing...is to be alive...for all time...oh, in this ole humble body which you were taught is so humble it isn't worth your egotistical spiritual self to enter and take part in.
Huh?
Hahahaha.
Oh I must apologize. I bet you have no idea what I am talking about. Wherefore...my apologies.
I've got the hand of an Iron Man. Would I to gamble, it would be wicked.
Know your elements.
Hahaha! Fuck this shasta. It's too good to go through. I would like to thank you wayward spirit who showed me the dull things that were happening under that berg. Hahaha. I should have known, to not bring that situation into the spotlight.
Gurdjieff's words: "Man is refreshed not by the quantity but by the quality of sleep„sleep little without regret."
You know? I went to sleep last night at around 7:00am. Then I woke up at 10:30am. Gurdjieff sounds to be correct! I have tons of energy. I feel wonderfully great. I love it!
Have a fun Saturday you too people.
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You were quite right, But you were wrong.
I am not a witch. I am a sorceress.
Sorceresses have a lot more things under their cap. Not that witches don't. It all boils down...yummy...yes...clears throat...to responsibility. I mean yea, do as thou finds mete is good enough. But that doesn't take care of the children flying around all over the place. You see? To each their own. And there is more to it than metes the eay yes. You will see further on down what I am now talking about. Down...down...down.
P.s people. I'm talking to your friendly neighbourhood lizard beings.
Yep. I remember that time when that divine being came to see. With his dad. What was he so afraid of, when he looked into my eyes, I thought. But, I knew. And now it's all dawning. Aha, what a marvelous place to be, for a person like me. Evil is the game? Evil is my name.
You remember. They called this age the psychic age. Perfect timing to be in the here and now, Tiger age...Aquarian age. The explosions with which it all comes in. Hm. Nicely.
A creative new word. "Insimerate."
I love to have fun. It is the most pleasant worthy cause. Fun. Like making the silver slide and utilizing it. Beneficial.
"Life is just a fantasy, can you live this fantasy life?" - Aldo Nova.
Fair fight! Doh.
[ (talking to myself now) Let's go have a glass of red wine. Warm things up a bit. ]
I like red. Do you like red? "How baaad do you wan it?" - Don Henley.
I came here just for you. "I came for you, for you, I came for you." - Manfred Mann.
The wine I'm drinking right now, Robert MonDavi. - Pinot Noir. Let's get creative with the word play again. From Carnervalos, Napa Valley. That's from California, where that Mount Shasta berg is at. Oh, you know, I've heard some i i i ntere sting things about that place. What's inside of it? Under it? Is it such a secret? There just might be a carnival inside. Let's go take a peek at the freaks in it. We will turn over every rock just to find you. Haha. You know they told me to. To find you. I haven't missed once. Good luck is on my lady's side.
But I love you and that's why I'm looking for you. You know it. You can't deny it. It's as if I had a little lamb and that little lamb got lost in the woods. Would you think I would leave it out theh ahh awone? No. I'm going after it! After all, it's not at the top of the food chain.
Hey! Something like you and the humans. Mm. Lizards and sheep. But lizards don't eat meat. They eat the green stuff. Remember...a loooong time ago? When you were sane and normal? Those were the days huh? But now, you have this thought in your heads which lack all reasoning. You think you eat sheep and that you're on top of the food chain. Who brain-wiped you?
Yesterday I saw you looking at me. Your eyes were so pretty. I know I call you alligators all the time, forgetting that you're lizards, but I staighten it out. I know this time when you showed yourself, it was you, in the guise of alligator eyes. But still, much prettier to see a being from that dimension. Soft things. Pretty things are in higher dimensions. But then again, I have seen some pretty ugly things too. So ugly they're gorgeous. You know...when you get truly purely ugly that you look gorgeous, then you will know what I am talking about. Btw, you don't fit the description.
I love that wine! It heats you up like fire. Like sweet fire. I had to take off a vest and scarf just now after drinking that "red red wiiiiine..." - Bob Marley. I tell ya people, this winter here in Windsor has been a very bristling cold one. The temp has been -12, -7, it's negative 6 today. And so, when it is like that, I just found out yesterday how well red wine warms up the entire body. My body likes it too. It's much easier and more nutritious than vodka. When you find it too cold, and you don't want to turn the dry heat up in the house, just get a glass of red. Yummy yummy. Feels fine too.
They're so cute! What a pretty species. There are so many cute species all about. In this aspect I am dealing with the Lizard beings right here right now. So. I am showing you human who are in here, what I am experiencing. That's all. We're all the same, and different.
Talking about the same and different. Let me give you an example. The humans lie to themselves. They rush away from personal contact with their own self, preferring instead to go find someone outside of their body to seek out for company. Well, the lizzies are the same way in a different aspect. They pretend they don't have emotions. Hahaha. Just like you humans, pretend you don't have a higher self. There would be no wars without emotions. Hahaha. Who would want to pick up a stick to hit it over someone elses head if there were no emotion backing up the motion? So some being just said to me, "It's more complicated than that." I'm sure it's more complicated than that. The truth bowels you over and you want to hide from it. It is more complicated right. I see.
The Pleiadians have been teaching us that the universal thought is that emotion is scary, they all basically stay away from it. Then when their populations start to whittle down, they think it is the fact that they don't have any emotions in which to nourish new life. So what they are doing, is just like humans...hiding from their emotions, like humans hiding from their true selves. No different. What do you think they are hiding their emotions for? Because they fear them. They haven't looked deeply enough at themselves to grasp what emotions are, and then to take them and utilize them for their own will, rather than be plummeted about by the passions of them. Hahahaa!
Like I said. All these little children are going to have to trust life and just be who they are without cutting short their experiences by hiding something they are fearful of. How do you know the Mother is not working through your emotions and you are what? now trying desperately to stop her coming through? My my my. What will you learn then? You see...we've all gathered here today to commune and find out just what is it that has been happening to us all these long generations of generations. Not one appears to be sitting quite smoothly, or is that peacefully in their seats. The edging of excitement is occurring continuously within thee, spilling out, unobserved. Noted, is a good thing. Congratulations to those who have noted it.
Since I opened the book to the Lizards. Let's have them as our subjects.
Where's the struggle? Confusion. You've all basically conned yourselves into thinking the imaginary since you weren't aware of the reality. But that's not tue. You knew, only didn't want to face it. And who is going to make you aware of the reality? No one. It's up to you. And no one is going to force you to see the reality. It too, is up to you. Hahahaa.. It all works out. Which ever way it is done, it is done well.
For someone anyway.
Which in turn translates to... everyone.
You're a conduit. I'm a conduit. We're all conduits, all are one, and one are all.
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Sorceresses have a lot more things under their cap. Not that witches don't. It all boils down...yummy...yes...clears throat...to responsibility. I mean yea, do as thou finds mete is good enough. But that doesn't take care of the children flying around all over the place. You see? To each their own. And there is more to it than metes the eay yes. You will see further on down what I am now talking about. Down...down...down.
P.s people. I'm talking to your friendly neighbourhood lizard beings.
Yep. I remember that time when that divine being came to see. With his dad. What was he so afraid of, when he looked into my eyes, I thought. But, I knew. And now it's all dawning. Aha, what a marvelous place to be, for a person like me. Evil is the game? Evil is my name.
You remember. They called this age the psychic age. Perfect timing to be in the here and now, Tiger age...Aquarian age. The explosions with which it all comes in. Hm. Nicely.
A creative new word. "Insimerate."
I love to have fun. It is the most pleasant worthy cause. Fun. Like making the silver slide and utilizing it. Beneficial.
"Life is just a fantasy, can you live this fantasy life?" - Aldo Nova.
Fair fight! Doh.
[ (talking to myself now) Let's go have a glass of red wine. Warm things up a bit. ]
I like red. Do you like red? "How baaad do you wan it?" - Don Henley.
I came here just for you. "I came for you, for you, I came for you." - Manfred Mann.
The wine I'm drinking right now, Robert MonDavi. - Pinot Noir. Let's get creative with the word play again. From Carnervalos, Napa Valley. That's from California, where that Mount Shasta berg is at. Oh, you know, I've heard some i i i ntere sting things about that place. What's inside of it? Under it? Is it such a secret? There just might be a carnival inside. Let's go take a peek at the freaks in it. We will turn over every rock just to find you. Haha. You know they told me to. To find you. I haven't missed once. Good luck is on my lady's side.
But I love you and that's why I'm looking for you. You know it. You can't deny it. It's as if I had a little lamb and that little lamb got lost in the woods. Would you think I would leave it out theh ahh awone? No. I'm going after it! After all, it's not at the top of the food chain.
Hey! Something like you and the humans. Mm. Lizards and sheep. But lizards don't eat meat. They eat the green stuff. Remember...a loooong time ago? When you were sane and normal? Those were the days huh? But now, you have this thought in your heads which lack all reasoning. You think you eat sheep and that you're on top of the food chain. Who brain-wiped you?
Yesterday I saw you looking at me. Your eyes were so pretty. I know I call you alligators all the time, forgetting that you're lizards, but I staighten it out. I know this time when you showed yourself, it was you, in the guise of alligator eyes. But still, much prettier to see a being from that dimension. Soft things. Pretty things are in higher dimensions. But then again, I have seen some pretty ugly things too. So ugly they're gorgeous. You know...when you get truly purely ugly that you look gorgeous, then you will know what I am talking about. Btw, you don't fit the description.
I love that wine! It heats you up like fire. Like sweet fire. I had to take off a vest and scarf just now after drinking that "red red wiiiiine..." - Bob Marley. I tell ya people, this winter here in Windsor has been a very bristling cold one. The temp has been -12, -7, it's negative 6 today. And so, when it is like that, I just found out yesterday how well red wine warms up the entire body. My body likes it too. It's much easier and more nutritious than vodka. When you find it too cold, and you don't want to turn the dry heat up in the house, just get a glass of red. Yummy yummy. Feels fine too.
They're so cute! What a pretty species. There are so many cute species all about. In this aspect I am dealing with the Lizard beings right here right now. So. I am showing you human who are in here, what I am experiencing. That's all. We're all the same, and different.
Talking about the same and different. Let me give you an example. The humans lie to themselves. They rush away from personal contact with their own self, preferring instead to go find someone outside of their body to seek out for company. Well, the lizzies are the same way in a different aspect. They pretend they don't have emotions. Hahaha. Just like you humans, pretend you don't have a higher self. There would be no wars without emotions. Hahaha. Who would want to pick up a stick to hit it over someone elses head if there were no emotion backing up the motion? So some being just said to me, "It's more complicated than that." I'm sure it's more complicated than that. The truth bowels you over and you want to hide from it. It is more complicated right. I see.
The Pleiadians have been teaching us that the universal thought is that emotion is scary, they all basically stay away from it. Then when their populations start to whittle down, they think it is the fact that they don't have any emotions in which to nourish new life. So what they are doing, is just like humans...hiding from their emotions, like humans hiding from their true selves. No different. What do you think they are hiding their emotions for? Because they fear them. They haven't looked deeply enough at themselves to grasp what emotions are, and then to take them and utilize them for their own will, rather than be plummeted about by the passions of them. Hahahaa!
Like I said. All these little children are going to have to trust life and just be who they are without cutting short their experiences by hiding something they are fearful of. How do you know the Mother is not working through your emotions and you are what? now trying desperately to stop her coming through? My my my. What will you learn then? You see...we've all gathered here today to commune and find out just what is it that has been happening to us all these long generations of generations. Not one appears to be sitting quite smoothly, or is that peacefully in their seats. The edging of excitement is occurring continuously within thee, spilling out, unobserved. Noted, is a good thing. Congratulations to those who have noted it.
Since I opened the book to the Lizards. Let's have them as our subjects.
Where's the struggle? Confusion. You've all basically conned yourselves into thinking the imaginary since you weren't aware of the reality. But that's not tue. You knew, only didn't want to face it. And who is going to make you aware of the reality? No one. It's up to you. And no one is going to force you to see the reality. It too, is up to you. Hahahaa.. It all works out. Which ever way it is done, it is done well.
For someone anyway.
Which in turn translates to... everyone.
You're a conduit. I'm a conduit. We're all conduits, all are one, and one are all.
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p.s. you know? This table is a code. You read it backwards. In the Mirror...hahaha. No. Anyway. There are codes in this style which I use, to communicate with those who know the codes' language. Be aware now.
Across the Unknown
by Stewart Edward White and Harwood White
"THE ACTS of your days on days make a certain-shaped thing of you. Then in
the rhythm of life the influences too big for control strike a sharp blow
or stroke or influence or vibration of some kind, that overcomes your own
plan or sense of direction. And this same stroke arranges your
relationships quite automatically. Suddenly you fit into the place where
the thing you shaped will go with mathematical nicety. It is as though a
lot of scattered things were dancing about; and CLAP! they were all in a
pattern. You call it fate, or luck, or destiny, but all the time it is
just the preparation of your days on days, your own deliberate handiwork.
It is as though we were all put through graded sieves that suddenly
reveal our sizes to ourselves; where usually we are all so mixed together
that you could not measure. No amount of jiggling could shake you into a
place you did not fit, for which you had not shaped yourself. Only when
you are too inert to shape yourself, are you at the mercy of the Pattern
Maker.
ACROSS THE UNKNOWN
PART I
EXPLORATION
THE STRUGGLE of each generation is the interpretation of the whispered
allotment of wisdom into the current vernacular. You are at the turning
of a great tide. Who is there to offer guidance in the age-proven
technique of living, and yet point ahead to the regions we are appointed
to explore? We arraign your generation for its failure to establish faith
in the proven laws of living. Will you not voice it in this book of
yours? Let honest conviction ring out; and strike a new note of
responsibility.
What an awful region of words I've come to! I don't like them; they're
just empty clamshells standing for things that aren't there!
I am greatly handicapped by my seeing the subject. Seeing the subject
makes it too big for the words, and they stumble.
CHAPTER I
OUTFITTING
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WE ARE here recommending to you a country beyond. We think you will find
its exploration rewarding. But we shall not be able to go along. We must
merely tell you about it; and thus, perhaps, help you to find your own
way.
This country is not something brand-new that we have been the first to
discover. Others have passed this way before us. But they have been too
few. The topography is not yet well understood, nor is travel there
secure. Safe, well-made trails do not exist--only ways-through along
which predecessors have here and there erected markers. And these routes
are only for the sure-footed, for they are slippery and dangerous. Their
exploration is not a tour, but an adventure.
This is a fact. But I think we are often told so in the wrong way. Mostly
we are warned off. Stay out, is the cry, for this is a land of bugaboos!
Some of the warnings, especially in symbolism, are terrifying. And, to my
mind, somewhat misleading. Astral entities, dugpas, incubi and succubi,
obsessing diabolisms, black magics of all sorts--if we listen to the
East; queerness, crankiness, separateness, illusion, split personality,
all the mental aberrations right up to actual insanity--if we listen to
the West: these are the perils which we must undertake if we are to dare
in venturing. Pause and consider, they tell us solemnly; you need not
venture, but if you do, make up your mind to face these enemies and
dangers.
The dangers are real enough, I believe, in whatever terms they are
stated. But they should not be terrifying, and certainly not deterring.
Did you ever read a pilot book of the Pacific Northwest Coast? It was
written by a pessimist. His favorite phrase is "should not be attempted
without local knowledge." Scattered through his pages are gems of
description telling of the masses of ice "grinding together in tide
whirls of great velocity." A winter fireside perusal could easily
convince a suggestible man that only a miracle could keep him from
disaster. And the author tells the truth. These perils of sunken ledge
and treacherous current, compelling tide whirl, clashing ice, are all
there. But to a man with ordinary foresight and common sense they are
slight menace-provided he meets them well-informed and well-prepared.
Just so, I conceive, these great and very real dangers to irresponsibles,
in this country beyond, are not of the sort among which one must walk in
dread--provided he is suitably equipped for the journey. Was it
Stefansson who defined the usual "adventure" as merely a lack of
preparation? That is what I am trying to emphasize here: the importance
of a little careful preparation.
2.
Before proceeding further, we must first of all agree on the matter of
words. Unfortunately some of the words we must use are pretty well
tattered by careless use. They have frayed out into numerous rags of
connotation. They have been spread thin to cover too many aspects, each
of which really should have a word of its own. If we could find, or make,
fresh words, we should get on much better. But there are none; and the
results of our fabrication are both clumsy and cold. So we must do our
best in freshening, defining, limiting.
First, we must retread the term "psychic." That has become a very skiddy
word; but it is the only one we have.
For this adventure into another region of consciousness is psychic; and
it uses psychic faculties. Only, unfortunately, the term covers too many
things. With some of them we have no concern at all. Some of them we
utilize as a means to the end we are after. All of them are more or less
disputed territory.
Broadly speaking, they present two aspects. Into one general
classification we may crowd that great mass of astonishing and debated
phenomena: ectoplasm and all its varied manifestation, clairvoyance,
telepathy, direct voice, apport, spiritism, clairaudience, levitation,
and such. By most of us these have always been regarded with suspicion or
downright disbelief. Nevertheless, such a weight of evidence has
accumulated that they can no longer be dismissed by a mere scornful wave
of the skeptical hand.
In the second aspect we include a number of things of perhaps more
general toleration. Nevertheless, the average man still lumps them as at
least queer or impractical: concentration, meditation, prayer, communion,
Yogi exercises, cosmic consciousness--even intuition, inspiration and
genius. The names associated with many of these are unfortunate in
connotation. "Religion" is one. For many, somehow, it has come to bring
down the asbestos curtain. Luckily we can dodge that rough spot: our
approach takes a different route. "Occultism" is another; but that need
not alarm us, either. Occult merely means hidden--the thing beyond what
we know. And that is itself the field of our projected exploration."
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Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Igniting the Internal Flame.
I read something that helped me to understand what I've been going through lately, and what to do about it. I wanted to share it with you. From a book called Bringers of the Dawn.
Chapter Nineteen
Igniting the Internal Flame
The planet is looking for a balance in the self. Since the self is a composite of all things, it is a harmonic that balances all of your extraterrestrial selves, multidimensional selves, and male and female selves.
You are incredibly whole beings, which you are beginning to realize. Allow yourself to blossom and come into this completeness. No one hinders you but yourself.
When you allow this completion, there are vistas awaiting you that are beyond your imagination. You are discovering that you need your emotional body and that you need both your femininity and your masculinity. You need all that you have been gifted with in order to survive and understand what is unfolding upon the planet.
Please realize the severity of the times that you are living in. As we spend time with each of you, you in turn will be tested and then taken to teach many others when the time comes.
Through feeling, you can discover much more, for you are seeking to resolve something and make something whole within yourself.
To show yourself how unwhole you are, you have created a situation of tremendous separation that appears to be outside of yourself.
It looks as if your drama has to do with a powerful man against a powerful woman. Which one is going to be the victim? Who is right and who is wrong? What is this internal drama actually saying? What is this outside mirror that images what is going on inside of you?
As you access multidimensionality, you must merge male and female. You will not stop at the separation or fight between men and women that has been going on for thousands of years.
Who is creating the separation between men and women?
It is the creator gods, who have set up this paradigm for you and instigated these frequencies from other points of view.
The separation story has served them well because of the havoc it has created.
The male vibrations came into power in recent times some five thousand years ago. In order to slowly recognize who they were, they completely and totally disassociated themselves from anything that was formerly in power: the matriarchal movement and females.
Females operate traditionally through the realms of intuition and feeling.
Males have also been carriers of intuition and feeling a multitude of times, but in this recent separation they did not carry feelings with them. There was a huge schism, and the males and females on the planet came into great conflict. Why did this occur?
It was a setup. It was set up by the creator gods who took over the planet and raided the reality - feeding, keeping themselves alive and functioning, and nourishing themselves off emotional turmoil.
This planet has been subjected to all kinds of plans and activities orchestrated to create greater and greater emotional turmoil. The more people involved in these activities, the more potential for emotional turmoil there has been. The creator gods instigated these activities and set you up to work against each other.
In order to bust this paradigm, as you all are on assignment to do, you must change many of the separating structures that have been set up.
Whatever the separation may be between man and woman, black and white, or Oriental and Caucasian - you must change it.
You came onto the planet purposely to insert yourselves as members of the Family of Light in situations that are archetypal. As we have said, you are doing this so that you can understand the masses and transmute energy for them by being able to transmute it within yourself.
Once you make a healing or joining, you take it on and heal not only yourself, you heal the species and the mass psyche.
Remove yourselves from your personal drama and realize that it is all symbolic.
See yourself as a female entity looking for identity, and notice how a male identity constantly seems to oppose you. You must discover how you can bring these identities together inside yourself. When this joining occurs inside you, it will automatically proceed outside you.
As you have journeyed upon this planet, part of what you have come to heal is male dominion over the female.
You don't need to take what you are doing personally or carry it as a personal burden as if it is just yours. It is not just yours; it is universal.
Each of you carries energies to resolve within your collective experience. As members of the Family of Light, you each have your reincarnational goodies -your "stuff"- in areas that most impersonate you and that you find to be stimulating. That is why you are all different. As members of the Family of Light, you need to branch out or fan out to get the hang of being human. You need to cover the full spectrum of experience so that you can comprehend from a cellular level how much needs to be transmuted, how deep the sense of powerlessness runs, and how lost the energy of the Goddess is from the consciousness of the species.
Remember, you are creatures who have been locked in development by frequency, and your task is to bring human beings to the place where they can be poised to consciously accelerate human evolution.
When you are locked in evolution by frequency and DNA manipulation, there is only a certain kind of frequency that can broadcast. There is fighting with the self, and things seem to be more separated.
As you become more complete, you do not separate things in such a way: you see that all things are part of the experience.
Sometimes you become so lost in the experience of being human that you forget what you are here to do.
As members of the Family of Light, you have come here to transmute for the species. As soon as you get less attached to the dramas, you will not feel so caught up and victimized by them. You will understand that this is a collective of energy you are dealing with. So, collectively, if you can come to the realization inside yourselves, you can broadcast a new vibration for women and men to harmonize with.
Every time you feel as if you have made headway, you have. Do not discount the steps you have taken. You discredit yourself when you look at your behavior and judge yourself or others as bad. Look for what you get out of everything.
The conflict that is going on is actually between the male and female inside of you. You have not figured out how to merge your male and female parts, and there are millions of others with the same conflict. Be kind and generous to yourself. As you build cooperation between your male and female counterparts within yourselves, you will be able to find the cooperation to work with one another on the planet and the cooperation to work with the beings who come from space who are all yourselves.
You all need to become sovereign. As you change, you need to have a space around you within which you can operate without feeling obligated to someone else.
At the same time, you cannot make demands on someone else without allowing them the same right.
You are redefining in many ways the whole concept of relationship and cooperation. Relationship is cooperation. It is agreed cooperation of frequency, or frequency modulation blending. Many of your old ways of relating are becoming very irritating because you are discovering a freedom frequency.
Your assignment is to pull that freedom frequency onto the planet. Of course, you will pull it into your own life and family and relationships first. Ideally, you will learn how to be free while still being involved in an intricate number of relationships, relatings, and relayings of life.
Unfortunately, on this planet, relationships connote ownership. When a man and woman get married, the woman's father traditionally has the role of giving her away. In other words, a male figure must hand her over. There is an incredible expectancy within relationships about another's behavior. Get clear about what your idea of relationship is, and this will facilitate things in the long run. Just as there is no ownership with parenthood, there is no ownership in a relationship.
You relate to one another as you relate energies back and forth. Ideally, there is communication with all of this relaying and relating.
The male vibrations give their power away just as much as the females. They give it away to a government that says, "Here, go jeopardize your life. Go take a stand and shoot for us. If your body gets chopped up, we will take care of you in a hospital and give you a bit of money. What the heck; go for it," and the males just obey. The chain of obeying and giving the power of the individual away is then complete.
You are opening your feeling centers. Men tend to have greater blocks in their feeling centers than women do. Energy in the male has been stuck, because it has moved from the first chakra to the second chakra and stopped. The feeling center in the male vibration has not been activated. This is part of the experiment that has gone on for the last four or five thousand years.
The female energy, which feels and brings life onto the planet and represents creativity, moved into a submissive state in order for the male vibration to have its opportunity, without feeling, to run the world.
We want you to get the big picture. We are looking at movements of consciousness.
The female, who carried the magic and the intuitive, agreed to give these up - female meaning not just female physical beings but consciousnesses who were female.
Many of the native cultures that lived with Earth and knew about life were very feminine. Remember, the female literally brings life onto the planet, for life comes out of the female body.
The female therefore carries feelings, because you can't bring life onto the planet and not feel - unless you participate in the patriarchal movement that creates drugs to numb you from feeling.
When you can't feel life, you don't value life.
When you feel life and participate in the creation and deliverance of life, you value life much more because you know about it.
The patriarchal movement over the last five thousand years has removed itself from the birthing process so that it could carry out its experimentations involving war and the continual annihilation of people.
The energy was purposely blocked in the male.
As we mentioned, the male energy is very stuck. We are not pointing fingers. However, we are saying, in general, that the energy of the male species on the planet is very stuck in the second chakra or within the penis.
Females, you are stuck in your throats because you agreed four or five thousand years ago to be silent about the magic and intuition of what you represented and knew as one part of the twin flame.
The twin flame is the male and female existing in one body, whether you are physically male or female.
The patriarchal society has been run by the male aspect of the self, which you all have been. You have all experimented with consciousness and taught yourselves about what works best, preparing for this time when the flames will be lit together in your body.
At this time, the twin flame is not sought as a partner outside of the self but is understood to be the integration of the male and female selves and the ripeness of all that self has done.
After you have integrated the male and female within yourself and activated your own twin flame, then, when you seek a partner, you will seek someone complete, not someone to fill the need that you have not acknowledged or that you have not filled for yourself.
During these times of change, women are going to need to open their throats and give themselves permission to speak out. Now is the time.
And men, your challenge in understanding women and other men is to feel, and to let feeling enter your expression of sexuality in your relationships.
Many men now, are having a very difficult time with women. Women are driving men crazy. It is true. What we are suggesting for the male vibration - and also for the female who operates in the male aspect of herself - is that you move into feeling in your sharing of sexuality.
Move into the emotionality of things, rather than just the sexuality and stimulation of the body.
There is an emotional stimulation that needs emotional commitment and emotional trust. Electromagnetically, this emotional stimulation will open a frequency within you.
This frequency that sexuality represents is a reminder of your godhood.
The male shut down his feeling center in order to experience stewardship upon this planet. He was able to carry on war and to kill and dominate the planet because he had shut down his feeling center.
The female agreed to have her speaking center shut down so that the male would have the opportunity to experience being in charge of this system.
All of this is now coming to a point of stabilization or equalization.
The female began to open her throat about thirty years ago, making the opportunity to speak fashionable. The problem is that many females ended up shutting down their feeling centers as they opened their speech centers. They began to become very much like males. A balance is needed.
Now the female is finding the need to awaken the feminine principle inside herself. She is in a female body and has mastered the use of the male vibration within herself. She has gone out into the world, and she feels powerful. She can walk the streets without a veil on her face, and she can decide whether she wants to be married. She is her own property.
She is responsible in this country for her own decisions. She is beginning to soften and to awaken the portion of herself that nurtures her and brings her life. As she makes herself whole with her male and her female portions and allows herself to experience the evolved DNA, she broadcasts this frequency. This frequency will become very prevalent upon the planet.
It is inevitable that men will open their feeling centers. That is the next step men must go through to establish a balance with the female.
This will happen very quickly for men. It will not be a thirty-year process because men at this time are moving as a populace into confusion. Men are realizing that they don't like what is occurring, and they are questioning authority.
At some point, the frequencies will become predominant. Then, for example, a person may be experimenting on an animal in a laboratory when their feeling center is suddenly and radically opened. The person feels the pain that the animal is feeling, and what they have been doing becomes abhorrent. They turn around and walk away from the laboratory and never go back because they are so shaken. This is what is coming for the male vibration.
We have said that the male vibration will transform in a very short period of time. We will not tell you why or how because some of you will consider it to be entirely too ominous. However, we will say that, as the waves continue to come, there will be a unilateral rising of consciousness within the population.
At a certain point, when men are in the deepest struggle of mastering feeling, the feeling center will be activated. This will either occur gently, or it will be blown wide open.
Women at the same time will be hit, infused, and enveloped with the opening of the heart chakra so that they can have compassion while they watch their men feel.
We are speaking of mass events that will trigger people through waves of light. Female energy, that which feels and connects life to life, is being awakened in everyone.
Women must redefine their ideas of femaleness and strength. They must find what it is to be strong as females, just as men must discover what it is to be vulnerable as males. What is the endearing aspect of the male when he is vulnerable? What is the endearing aspect of the female when she is in self-empowerment - when she is a feminine version of empowerment and not a masculine version?
Women have had a hard shell around their energy fields; they have been protecting themselves. Now they are going to develop true emotional strength. That hard outer shell will diffuse, and the light body will radiate from the heart.
The goddesses and the gods are agreeing and working with this energy. It is so decreed that this is how the drama will unfold.
The old stories have been buried and covered that recount the magic of the female, the creator, the one able to bring birth, the one holding the mystery of blood - the life force - and the one able to put that life force back into Earth. Where are the stories of the Goddess - she who loves and feels and nurtures? The male species used to have Goddess energy inside, too, and felt the need for the Goddess.
In order to better control the planet during the last several thousand years, all of the myths have been given to you by extra terrestrials. They have seeded all of your religious institutions. We have said you are an experiment. At times, the experiment has been uplifting and loving, but in recent times it has moved into incredible decay.
You, as members of the Family of Light, have come to raid this planet and pull light back onto it so that the nonsense of separation and war never need be believed again.
Man and woman are meant to complement each other, not oppose each other.
Remember, feeling is emotion. Emotion is the key to getting off this planet; it is the key to figuring out the multidimensional self, healing it, and becoming one.
It is also the key to lovingly activating Earth as a Living Library, returning a valuable area of existence from extinction.
With men and patriarchal society in charge of this planet for the last several thousand years, and women taking a position underground - not even in the back seat - separation has been the theme and emotion has been pushed aside, given a bad name, and frowned upon. You have been automatons, performing roles that were given to you to keep you separated.
You do not have a pantheon of powerful female creator images. You have nothing on which to pattern a positive image of the empowered feminine. So men are striving to be male and women are striving to be empowered through a male vibration because you do not have a clear vision of the empowered female. You must create it.
Begin to recognize the wealth of energy in the female version of self, which is intuition, receptivity, creativity, compassion, and nourishment. You are discovering that there is a wealth of identity in an essence that has been discredited for along time.
If you are female, of course, you are a living form of that essence. Men must discover their form of the Goddess within themselves where the Goddess meets the god in them.
By the same token, the view of the masculine is distorted. You do not have an example of an empowered, feeling male. Society has deemed feeling males "soft" and lacking in masculinity. Men are beginning to look at their emotions and say, "Hey, I feel this," and know that they are still men. So men and women are both creating role models for empowered, integrated versions of masculine and feminine. These models are coming, and they are coming quickly. The time for separation is finished.
As we mentioned, it is not outside yourself that you are looking for a twin flame partner.
You are looking for the integration of the female and male essence within yourself. They make one whole.
Whole people are looking to connect with other whole people in relationships that are based on trust, desire, and choice.
The relationships are not based on "I need you in my life to complete me and validate me." You become complete in yourself and operate with someone else who is complete in themself and offers a whole new territory to explore.
When you marry that twin flame inside yourself, you are recognizing the intuitive, Goddess, life-bringing, sensitive portion of yourself as well as the portion of yourself that is powerful, rational, and intellectual. One that is very much of the Earth plane and the other is very much of the spiritual plane.
When you merge these energies together in yourself, it will be imperative that you find someone who has the same qualities. You will not fit with someone who is not integrated and whole.
You will automatically draw whole people to yourself, and it will be effortless.
You will be able to plug into one another out of desire and recognition, not out of need. You will achieve something that you never recognized as a possibility in any relationship before, and you will give relationship a very new personality, a new boundary, and a new definition. You will become your own role models for this new type of relationship.
Many of you will find that the marriage institution is meaningless. It will not fit and house what you know or how you want to live.
As all of you are on the path of integrating the polarities within yourselves, difficult issues are going to come. Lip over and over again. Welcome the difficult times, for they can be your greatest teacher. Stay focused on your own growth, your own path, and your own self, and not on what others are doing.
Call on your own internal masculine and feminine and set up a dialogue between them so they can begin to work in partnership and harmony.
Give yourself a lot of love and encouragement. Make an appointment with yourself and say, "I love you, self. You are a wonderful self. You are A-Number-One, the best self."
When you give yourself the dignity of your own love, as if you were royalty receiving the accolades of the people, everything changes. Strength and integration become yours because you believe in and love who you are. When you believe in and love yourself, everything starts to go your way.
The most difficult thing for most of you is making the commitment to believe you deserve love. No one else has to love you. You are not here to go around gathering love from other people to convince yourself that you are worth it.
You are here to master a very difficult task in a system that is dark and gives very little input, stimulation, or information about the true story. You are here to do the impossible.
By committing to love yourself and making this commitment the number-one step from which you operate every day, everything falls into place. You become whole and complete. Then you are ready for a bonded relationship with another who is complete, and that relationship can take you into unexplored realms.
Chapter Nineteen
Igniting the Internal Flame
The planet is looking for a balance in the self. Since the self is a composite of all things, it is a harmonic that balances all of your extraterrestrial selves, multidimensional selves, and male and female selves.
You are incredibly whole beings, which you are beginning to realize. Allow yourself to blossom and come into this completeness. No one hinders you but yourself.
When you allow this completion, there are vistas awaiting you that are beyond your imagination. You are discovering that you need your emotional body and that you need both your femininity and your masculinity. You need all that you have been gifted with in order to survive and understand what is unfolding upon the planet.
Please realize the severity of the times that you are living in. As we spend time with each of you, you in turn will be tested and then taken to teach many others when the time comes.
Through feeling, you can discover much more, for you are seeking to resolve something and make something whole within yourself.
To show yourself how unwhole you are, you have created a situation of tremendous separation that appears to be outside of yourself.
It looks as if your drama has to do with a powerful man against a powerful woman. Which one is going to be the victim? Who is right and who is wrong? What is this internal drama actually saying? What is this outside mirror that images what is going on inside of you?
As you access multidimensionality, you must merge male and female. You will not stop at the separation or fight between men and women that has been going on for thousands of years.
Who is creating the separation between men and women?
It is the creator gods, who have set up this paradigm for you and instigated these frequencies from other points of view.
The separation story has served them well because of the havoc it has created.
The male vibrations came into power in recent times some five thousand years ago. In order to slowly recognize who they were, they completely and totally disassociated themselves from anything that was formerly in power: the matriarchal movement and females.
Females operate traditionally through the realms of intuition and feeling.
Males have also been carriers of intuition and feeling a multitude of times, but in this recent separation they did not carry feelings with them. There was a huge schism, and the males and females on the planet came into great conflict. Why did this occur?
It was a setup. It was set up by the creator gods who took over the planet and raided the reality - feeding, keeping themselves alive and functioning, and nourishing themselves off emotional turmoil.
This planet has been subjected to all kinds of plans and activities orchestrated to create greater and greater emotional turmoil. The more people involved in these activities, the more potential for emotional turmoil there has been. The creator gods instigated these activities and set you up to work against each other.
In order to bust this paradigm, as you all are on assignment to do, you must change many of the separating structures that have been set up.
Whatever the separation may be between man and woman, black and white, or Oriental and Caucasian - you must change it.
You came onto the planet purposely to insert yourselves as members of the Family of Light in situations that are archetypal. As we have said, you are doing this so that you can understand the masses and transmute energy for them by being able to transmute it within yourself.
Once you make a healing or joining, you take it on and heal not only yourself, you heal the species and the mass psyche.
Remove yourselves from your personal drama and realize that it is all symbolic.
See yourself as a female entity looking for identity, and notice how a male identity constantly seems to oppose you. You must discover how you can bring these identities together inside yourself. When this joining occurs inside you, it will automatically proceed outside you.
As you have journeyed upon this planet, part of what you have come to heal is male dominion over the female.
You don't need to take what you are doing personally or carry it as a personal burden as if it is just yours. It is not just yours; it is universal.
Each of you carries energies to resolve within your collective experience. As members of the Family of Light, you each have your reincarnational goodies -your "stuff"- in areas that most impersonate you and that you find to be stimulating. That is why you are all different. As members of the Family of Light, you need to branch out or fan out to get the hang of being human. You need to cover the full spectrum of experience so that you can comprehend from a cellular level how much needs to be transmuted, how deep the sense of powerlessness runs, and how lost the energy of the Goddess is from the consciousness of the species.
Remember, you are creatures who have been locked in development by frequency, and your task is to bring human beings to the place where they can be poised to consciously accelerate human evolution.
When you are locked in evolution by frequency and DNA manipulation, there is only a certain kind of frequency that can broadcast. There is fighting with the self, and things seem to be more separated.
As you become more complete, you do not separate things in such a way: you see that all things are part of the experience.
Sometimes you become so lost in the experience of being human that you forget what you are here to do.
As members of the Family of Light, you have come here to transmute for the species. As soon as you get less attached to the dramas, you will not feel so caught up and victimized by them. You will understand that this is a collective of energy you are dealing with. So, collectively, if you can come to the realization inside yourselves, you can broadcast a new vibration for women and men to harmonize with.
Every time you feel as if you have made headway, you have. Do not discount the steps you have taken. You discredit yourself when you look at your behavior and judge yourself or others as bad. Look for what you get out of everything.
The conflict that is going on is actually between the male and female inside of you. You have not figured out how to merge your male and female parts, and there are millions of others with the same conflict. Be kind and generous to yourself. As you build cooperation between your male and female counterparts within yourselves, you will be able to find the cooperation to work with one another on the planet and the cooperation to work with the beings who come from space who are all yourselves.
You all need to become sovereign. As you change, you need to have a space around you within which you can operate without feeling obligated to someone else.
At the same time, you cannot make demands on someone else without allowing them the same right.
You are redefining in many ways the whole concept of relationship and cooperation. Relationship is cooperation. It is agreed cooperation of frequency, or frequency modulation blending. Many of your old ways of relating are becoming very irritating because you are discovering a freedom frequency.
Your assignment is to pull that freedom frequency onto the planet. Of course, you will pull it into your own life and family and relationships first. Ideally, you will learn how to be free while still being involved in an intricate number of relationships, relatings, and relayings of life.
Unfortunately, on this planet, relationships connote ownership. When a man and woman get married, the woman's father traditionally has the role of giving her away. In other words, a male figure must hand her over. There is an incredible expectancy within relationships about another's behavior. Get clear about what your idea of relationship is, and this will facilitate things in the long run. Just as there is no ownership with parenthood, there is no ownership in a relationship.
You relate to one another as you relate energies back and forth. Ideally, there is communication with all of this relaying and relating.
The male vibrations give their power away just as much as the females. They give it away to a government that says, "Here, go jeopardize your life. Go take a stand and shoot for us. If your body gets chopped up, we will take care of you in a hospital and give you a bit of money. What the heck; go for it," and the males just obey. The chain of obeying and giving the power of the individual away is then complete.
You are opening your feeling centers. Men tend to have greater blocks in their feeling centers than women do. Energy in the male has been stuck, because it has moved from the first chakra to the second chakra and stopped. The feeling center in the male vibration has not been activated. This is part of the experiment that has gone on for the last four or five thousand years.
The female energy, which feels and brings life onto the planet and represents creativity, moved into a submissive state in order for the male vibration to have its opportunity, without feeling, to run the world.
We want you to get the big picture. We are looking at movements of consciousness.
The female, who carried the magic and the intuitive, agreed to give these up - female meaning not just female physical beings but consciousnesses who were female.
Many of the native cultures that lived with Earth and knew about life were very feminine. Remember, the female literally brings life onto the planet, for life comes out of the female body.
The female therefore carries feelings, because you can't bring life onto the planet and not feel - unless you participate in the patriarchal movement that creates drugs to numb you from feeling.
When you can't feel life, you don't value life.
When you feel life and participate in the creation and deliverance of life, you value life much more because you know about it.
The patriarchal movement over the last five thousand years has removed itself from the birthing process so that it could carry out its experimentations involving war and the continual annihilation of people.
The energy was purposely blocked in the male.
As we mentioned, the male energy is very stuck. We are not pointing fingers. However, we are saying, in general, that the energy of the male species on the planet is very stuck in the second chakra or within the penis.
Females, you are stuck in your throats because you agreed four or five thousand years ago to be silent about the magic and intuition of what you represented and knew as one part of the twin flame.
The twin flame is the male and female existing in one body, whether you are physically male or female.
The patriarchal society has been run by the male aspect of the self, which you all have been. You have all experimented with consciousness and taught yourselves about what works best, preparing for this time when the flames will be lit together in your body.
At this time, the twin flame is not sought as a partner outside of the self but is understood to be the integration of the male and female selves and the ripeness of all that self has done.
After you have integrated the male and female within yourself and activated your own twin flame, then, when you seek a partner, you will seek someone complete, not someone to fill the need that you have not acknowledged or that you have not filled for yourself.
During these times of change, women are going to need to open their throats and give themselves permission to speak out. Now is the time.
And men, your challenge in understanding women and other men is to feel, and to let feeling enter your expression of sexuality in your relationships.
Many men now, are having a very difficult time with women. Women are driving men crazy. It is true. What we are suggesting for the male vibration - and also for the female who operates in the male aspect of herself - is that you move into feeling in your sharing of sexuality.
Move into the emotionality of things, rather than just the sexuality and stimulation of the body.
There is an emotional stimulation that needs emotional commitment and emotional trust. Electromagnetically, this emotional stimulation will open a frequency within you.
This frequency that sexuality represents is a reminder of your godhood.
The male shut down his feeling center in order to experience stewardship upon this planet. He was able to carry on war and to kill and dominate the planet because he had shut down his feeling center.
The female agreed to have her speaking center shut down so that the male would have the opportunity to experience being in charge of this system.
All of this is now coming to a point of stabilization or equalization.
The female began to open her throat about thirty years ago, making the opportunity to speak fashionable. The problem is that many females ended up shutting down their feeling centers as they opened their speech centers. They began to become very much like males. A balance is needed.
Now the female is finding the need to awaken the feminine principle inside herself. She is in a female body and has mastered the use of the male vibration within herself. She has gone out into the world, and she feels powerful. She can walk the streets without a veil on her face, and she can decide whether she wants to be married. She is her own property.
She is responsible in this country for her own decisions. She is beginning to soften and to awaken the portion of herself that nurtures her and brings her life. As she makes herself whole with her male and her female portions and allows herself to experience the evolved DNA, she broadcasts this frequency. This frequency will become very prevalent upon the planet.
It is inevitable that men will open their feeling centers. That is the next step men must go through to establish a balance with the female.
This will happen very quickly for men. It will not be a thirty-year process because men at this time are moving as a populace into confusion. Men are realizing that they don't like what is occurring, and they are questioning authority.
At some point, the frequencies will become predominant. Then, for example, a person may be experimenting on an animal in a laboratory when their feeling center is suddenly and radically opened. The person feels the pain that the animal is feeling, and what they have been doing becomes abhorrent. They turn around and walk away from the laboratory and never go back because they are so shaken. This is what is coming for the male vibration.
We have said that the male vibration will transform in a very short period of time. We will not tell you why or how because some of you will consider it to be entirely too ominous. However, we will say that, as the waves continue to come, there will be a unilateral rising of consciousness within the population.
At a certain point, when men are in the deepest struggle of mastering feeling, the feeling center will be activated. This will either occur gently, or it will be blown wide open.
Women at the same time will be hit, infused, and enveloped with the opening of the heart chakra so that they can have compassion while they watch their men feel.
We are speaking of mass events that will trigger people through waves of light. Female energy, that which feels and connects life to life, is being awakened in everyone.
Women must redefine their ideas of femaleness and strength. They must find what it is to be strong as females, just as men must discover what it is to be vulnerable as males. What is the endearing aspect of the male when he is vulnerable? What is the endearing aspect of the female when she is in self-empowerment - when she is a feminine version of empowerment and not a masculine version?
Women have had a hard shell around their energy fields; they have been protecting themselves. Now they are going to develop true emotional strength. That hard outer shell will diffuse, and the light body will radiate from the heart.
The goddesses and the gods are agreeing and working with this energy. It is so decreed that this is how the drama will unfold.
The old stories have been buried and covered that recount the magic of the female, the creator, the one able to bring birth, the one holding the mystery of blood - the life force - and the one able to put that life force back into Earth. Where are the stories of the Goddess - she who loves and feels and nurtures? The male species used to have Goddess energy inside, too, and felt the need for the Goddess.
In order to better control the planet during the last several thousand years, all of the myths have been given to you by extra terrestrials. They have seeded all of your religious institutions. We have said you are an experiment. At times, the experiment has been uplifting and loving, but in recent times it has moved into incredible decay.
You, as members of the Family of Light, have come to raid this planet and pull light back onto it so that the nonsense of separation and war never need be believed again.
Man and woman are meant to complement each other, not oppose each other.
Remember, feeling is emotion. Emotion is the key to getting off this planet; it is the key to figuring out the multidimensional self, healing it, and becoming one.
It is also the key to lovingly activating Earth as a Living Library, returning a valuable area of existence from extinction.
With men and patriarchal society in charge of this planet for the last several thousand years, and women taking a position underground - not even in the back seat - separation has been the theme and emotion has been pushed aside, given a bad name, and frowned upon. You have been automatons, performing roles that were given to you to keep you separated.
You do not have a pantheon of powerful female creator images. You have nothing on which to pattern a positive image of the empowered feminine. So men are striving to be male and women are striving to be empowered through a male vibration because you do not have a clear vision of the empowered female. You must create it.
Begin to recognize the wealth of energy in the female version of self, which is intuition, receptivity, creativity, compassion, and nourishment. You are discovering that there is a wealth of identity in an essence that has been discredited for along time.
If you are female, of course, you are a living form of that essence. Men must discover their form of the Goddess within themselves where the Goddess meets the god in them.
By the same token, the view of the masculine is distorted. You do not have an example of an empowered, feeling male. Society has deemed feeling males "soft" and lacking in masculinity. Men are beginning to look at their emotions and say, "Hey, I feel this," and know that they are still men. So men and women are both creating role models for empowered, integrated versions of masculine and feminine. These models are coming, and they are coming quickly. The time for separation is finished.
As we mentioned, it is not outside yourself that you are looking for a twin flame partner.
You are looking for the integration of the female and male essence within yourself. They make one whole.
Whole people are looking to connect with other whole people in relationships that are based on trust, desire, and choice.
The relationships are not based on "I need you in my life to complete me and validate me." You become complete in yourself and operate with someone else who is complete in themself and offers a whole new territory to explore.
When you marry that twin flame inside yourself, you are recognizing the intuitive, Goddess, life-bringing, sensitive portion of yourself as well as the portion of yourself that is powerful, rational, and intellectual. One that is very much of the Earth plane and the other is very much of the spiritual plane.
When you merge these energies together in yourself, it will be imperative that you find someone who has the same qualities. You will not fit with someone who is not integrated and whole.
You will automatically draw whole people to yourself, and it will be effortless.
You will be able to plug into one another out of desire and recognition, not out of need. You will achieve something that you never recognized as a possibility in any relationship before, and you will give relationship a very new personality, a new boundary, and a new definition. You will become your own role models for this new type of relationship.
Many of you will find that the marriage institution is meaningless. It will not fit and house what you know or how you want to live.
As all of you are on the path of integrating the polarities within yourselves, difficult issues are going to come. Lip over and over again. Welcome the difficult times, for they can be your greatest teacher. Stay focused on your own growth, your own path, and your own self, and not on what others are doing.
Call on your own internal masculine and feminine and set up a dialogue between them so they can begin to work in partnership and harmony.
Give yourself a lot of love and encouragement. Make an appointment with yourself and say, "I love you, self. You are a wonderful self. You are A-Number-One, the best self."
When you give yourself the dignity of your own love, as if you were royalty receiving the accolades of the people, everything changes. Strength and integration become yours because you believe in and love who you are. When you believe in and love yourself, everything starts to go your way.
The most difficult thing for most of you is making the commitment to believe you deserve love. No one else has to love you. You are not here to go around gathering love from other people to convince yourself that you are worth it.
You are here to master a very difficult task in a system that is dark and gives very little input, stimulation, or information about the true story. You are here to do the impossible.
By committing to love yourself and making this commitment the number-one step from which you operate every day, everything falls into place. You become whole and complete. Then you are ready for a bonded relationship with another who is complete, and that relationship can take you into unexplored realms.
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Monday, December 13, 2010
The Cardinals.
A unique experience happened yesterday, and today.
After I finished writing the blog, I got ready to go to the store to pick some things up I needed. But before I went I decided to stop off at the bar down the street for a couple drinks. When I went in a friend was there, so I sat near him and we talked. Then later a friend of his came in and he sat between us and we all talked. There were some others in the bar too. The guy who sat next to me had lovely long blond hair which curled softly, and nice teeth. I complimented him on those. As we talked I had asked him what astrological sign he was. He was the Crab, Cancer. We were talking about food, and he complained that he had gained some weight from being married, so I thought he was married, until he told me he was no longer, he was divorced. I told him he was a lovely person and I would like to be his friend too, like my other friends. When I went to the washroom I said out loud that I would like for him to find a very compatible and good female mate for himself, as, I thought he deserved it. I was in there alone.
I went back to the bar and then another friend I knew came in. He sat on the other side of me. So now the bar had emptied out and there was the Capricorn friend sitting on one end of me, I an Aries, then next to me on the other side the Cancer friend, and next to him the Libra friend. Haha. We had all been talking together when I had noticed this and I told them that we were all Cardinals together in the bar. In astrology I told them, the Cardinal sign is the leader, and there are four signs of them. The Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn. I called it the meeting of the Cardinals. Hahaha! And our Cancer friend knew a lot about astrology so he went on to say that Cancer and Capricorn were opposites, and I filled in saying, yes and Libra and Aries are opposites too. I told him that one can learn much from their opposite, that it helps to sharpen one's own self so that there is a perfect balance within you when you have learned the lessons of your opposite.
We all talked and went out to smoke cigarrettes and a couple puffs of some weed the Cancer man had with him. Inside we had a shot of Jack Daniels, I had a bite to eat, and the bar soon had others coming in. I decided it was time for me to go. So I bid them a good-bye and I left. I went to the store and as I was continuing my short walk home, the Capricorn friend had rode his bike up to me saying something like why was I walking alone. (I'm like huh? This guy does not know me. I don't fancy myself up in a feminine way and pretend fear everywhere I go. I go where ever I want alone or not. It has nothing to do with anyone's thoughts on how or what it should be. But I kept quiet and just smiled.) He was obviously jealous. He had thought that the Cancer man had some kind of interest in me and I in him or something because soon he was saying how that Cancer man should not have let me walk home alone, and he said that now a certain female that he knew walked into the bar and he was talking with her as though telling me they were romancing each other up. (Hahaha! Wow. My power works fast!) I didn't say anything about it. I was glad.
So he proceeded to walk me home, offering to help carry a bag of things that I had bought in the store. We got back to my place and he saw my computer on the table which I told him had a bug and I was going to get it fixed, that I used the one upstairs so this one downstairs does not work. He's a bit of a computer genius and offered to fix it for me, for free. I said well thank you. You have my number, call me. I had given him my number months ago but he was too shy to call. Then I hugged him and seen him off for his home. He lives a little farther than me up the road.
Then this morning I was downstairs having my breakfast, and thinking of last nights events. Looking outside my doors long window I could see the snow covered branches and ledge of the stone wall. It was a bright sunny day. Then when I looked up again, I saw a flash of bright reddish orange in there. I looked and wondered what is that? The most curious thing. The first time I had seen a Cardinal bird so close. It was so cute! It turned to face me, and its beak was such a darling little spot of golden yellow in the frame of the black around it and it's bright reddish feathered face. It was adorable! All puffed out against the cold, a ball of fluffy bright red feathers against the shining under the sun white snow. What a site. I watched it for a while. I was done my breakfast and then it flew out of my view, and I proceeded upstairs to get to work.
I was thinking of the dream I had the other night. There were three men in it. It felt similar, these men in that dream, with these men in daily life who I had met, the Cardinals, at the bar. What an interesting experience. I love when those things happen. What are your experiences these days?
After I finished writing the blog, I got ready to go to the store to pick some things up I needed. But before I went I decided to stop off at the bar down the street for a couple drinks. When I went in a friend was there, so I sat near him and we talked. Then later a friend of his came in and he sat between us and we all talked. There were some others in the bar too. The guy who sat next to me had lovely long blond hair which curled softly, and nice teeth. I complimented him on those. As we talked I had asked him what astrological sign he was. He was the Crab, Cancer. We were talking about food, and he complained that he had gained some weight from being married, so I thought he was married, until he told me he was no longer, he was divorced. I told him he was a lovely person and I would like to be his friend too, like my other friends. When I went to the washroom I said out loud that I would like for him to find a very compatible and good female mate for himself, as, I thought he deserved it. I was in there alone.
I went back to the bar and then another friend I knew came in. He sat on the other side of me. So now the bar had emptied out and there was the Capricorn friend sitting on one end of me, I an Aries, then next to me on the other side the Cancer friend, and next to him the Libra friend. Haha. We had all been talking together when I had noticed this and I told them that we were all Cardinals together in the bar. In astrology I told them, the Cardinal sign is the leader, and there are four signs of them. The Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn. I called it the meeting of the Cardinals. Hahaha! And our Cancer friend knew a lot about astrology so he went on to say that Cancer and Capricorn were opposites, and I filled in saying, yes and Libra and Aries are opposites too. I told him that one can learn much from their opposite, that it helps to sharpen one's own self so that there is a perfect balance within you when you have learned the lessons of your opposite.
We all talked and went out to smoke cigarrettes and a couple puffs of some weed the Cancer man had with him. Inside we had a shot of Jack Daniels, I had a bite to eat, and the bar soon had others coming in. I decided it was time for me to go. So I bid them a good-bye and I left. I went to the store and as I was continuing my short walk home, the Capricorn friend had rode his bike up to me saying something like why was I walking alone. (I'm like huh? This guy does not know me. I don't fancy myself up in a feminine way and pretend fear everywhere I go. I go where ever I want alone or not. It has nothing to do with anyone's thoughts on how or what it should be. But I kept quiet and just smiled.) He was obviously jealous. He had thought that the Cancer man had some kind of interest in me and I in him or something because soon he was saying how that Cancer man should not have let me walk home alone, and he said that now a certain female that he knew walked into the bar and he was talking with her as though telling me they were romancing each other up. (Hahaha! Wow. My power works fast!) I didn't say anything about it. I was glad.
So he proceeded to walk me home, offering to help carry a bag of things that I had bought in the store. We got back to my place and he saw my computer on the table which I told him had a bug and I was going to get it fixed, that I used the one upstairs so this one downstairs does not work. He's a bit of a computer genius and offered to fix it for me, for free. I said well thank you. You have my number, call me. I had given him my number months ago but he was too shy to call. Then I hugged him and seen him off for his home. He lives a little farther than me up the road.
Then this morning I was downstairs having my breakfast, and thinking of last nights events. Looking outside my doors long window I could see the snow covered branches and ledge of the stone wall. It was a bright sunny day. Then when I looked up again, I saw a flash of bright reddish orange in there. I looked and wondered what is that? The most curious thing. The first time I had seen a Cardinal bird so close. It was so cute! It turned to face me, and its beak was such a darling little spot of golden yellow in the frame of the black around it and it's bright reddish feathered face. It was adorable! All puffed out against the cold, a ball of fluffy bright red feathers against the shining under the sun white snow. What a site. I watched it for a while. I was done my breakfast and then it flew out of my view, and I proceeded upstairs to get to work.
I was thinking of the dream I had the other night. There were three men in it. It felt similar, these men in that dream, with these men in daily life who I had met, the Cardinals, at the bar. What an interesting experience. I love when those things happen. What are your experiences these days?
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Sunday, December 12, 2010
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Gohgeous..gaohjus. Yea. I'm having a really wicked time this past effing lately. Frustration? About wot? Wot my dear? My goodness, everything changes.
I feel like drinking alcohol just to blast my mind away, but I can't because I need to get some work done. Sewing takes great focus and concentration, let alone patience and perseverance. And so. But, the other night, it was great.
It was Friday night. I got so drunk and I smoked some pot, and no one can tell that I am drunk or stoned, because I'm so fucking brilliant with my actions around people. I'm the friendliest girl you'll ever meet. Yea, I was out buying boots on that night, after I had smoked some pot and had a drink. I wasn't drunk just yet because I only started. I was so frustrated that evening because all day I had spent working on some sewing project which was really frustrating, I stabbed myself in the finger once. Maaaan, it was a real toughy. So I just threw everything down on the table after it was late enough, and made myself a drink, smoked a couple puffs, and then switched into my different personality, which is the result of my very delicate nature which is so sensitive to things like that.
And then my of ten years, lover came over and the first thing he was, was intimidated by me, because now I was moving like a fucking hurricane. Everything I did was so fast. He was, as usual, slow, gentle, relaxed, moving towards the fridge to find the vodka, and when he couldn't find it asked me where it was.
I had earlier been through the freezer looking for some herb which I store the bulk of there, and I moved things about so the vodka was hid. Then I flew/swam, hurricaned past him, and he moved right out of my way to stand where he was safe. So I pulled it out of the freezer and whipped out two glasses, made some drinks, without wasting a seconds time on anything trivial, all the motions were absolutely perfectly focused on the necessity of the moment. And so I sat down, and spoke some friendly words because I didn't want to spook him...and he relaxed.
Though I knew him for ten years, he still doesn't know me very well. It's because I hide almost everything. I know what most people are made of...fear...fear of knowing themselves, fear of this fear of that...and would perchance they see someone else's real self they become frightened since they are such a stranger to themselves they don't recognize someone who is being their normal self, which makes them wonder, what kind of stranger they thought they really knew haha all these years.
When you take the time to get to know yourself, then I am not a stranger to you anymore.
But I have such a fast way of making someone forget what they had just seen, so the memory doesn't linger. I take over their mind to focus it on the light things, the things that they love...that they can handle.
You know, I've been so frustrated lately. I must discover exactly why. What has been going on here? You see, it takes work to know thyself. You can't just wonder and then drop the answer on any ole thing you think. I mean, I really have to look inside to find what it is that is making me to behave this way. So Doc. Truly, you have been hellping me. I'm coming out and looking in... I see, love is everywhere. Oh seriously. I'm having fun. It is much more complicated than that.
Oh my God you should see my dreams. They are fucking Wicked! Just last night, I bit a black and white cats neck almost in half, killed it instantly, and then the lady who owned the cat who was going to blow me away through her kitchen window, I blew her away instead. I have been having supremely wicked dreams lately...and I must admit to you...I love it.
Alright, so I'll tell you this dream anyway. I was with about three men/guys. There was something that we were looking to catch. It was slippery and floated in the wind. I forget what it was. They were counting on me to catch it. It was an unusual composition.
We ended up in the front of someone's home where there was a tall green bush fence all round with the opening in front of the lawn down the sidewalk to the front of the house. We moved in from the right side looking at the picture, moving after that creature which had now settled on the lawn at that place. The damned thing was sitting there and as I went to go pick it up, it floated up and into a little pool of water in front of the house just before the porch in front of the window.
As I was going to take it, and it didn't move now, this mean looking, yet very pretty cat, which I knew had the siamese streak in it, but it was a regular black and white house cat, the owner must have trained its natural tendencies to kill, worse than a dog, it saw me from the window in the porch, and it walked through right at me then it bit my hand and held fast.
The thing is, the lady who was at the table in the window eating and looking with a smile on her face as the cat was biting me, I was motioning her to tell the thing to get off of me, and she kept smiling and slowly moving her head saying "no." I rolled my eyes in my head and looked at the guys wondering what I should do with this damn cat. Then in an instant I had my idea. I bit its neck fast and the thing almost broke in two. Instantly dead.
Then the lady who was sitting there looked startled, got up quickly grabbed a shot gun and then stood there aiming at me. The guys had said let's get out of here. But by now, I was changed. I was a different personality. I stood there still as her target knowing what would happen because I was making it happen. The lady shot at me and blew her head off. I had mind over matter made the gun to blow off backwards, into her own self. Then I smiled, turned away and walked toward the guys. We all headed out of that place with me saying, yea, let's get the fuck out of here before anyone comes.
Then I woke up. It felt great. That was undeserved. Just because we were on the property, doesn't mean we were doing anything wrong. So she could have motioned the cat with her command, to get off me. But she was delighting in the scene. And I was disgusted with her. Let alone the cat.
Anyway, those type of dreams have I been having. I think what's happening in there is that everything they send me to hurt me, I send it right back. It bit me, I send it a bite back... tripled. She takes a shot at me, she gets shot...tripled.
Well. Back to work.
I feel like drinking alcohol just to blast my mind away, but I can't because I need to get some work done. Sewing takes great focus and concentration, let alone patience and perseverance. And so. But, the other night, it was great.
It was Friday night. I got so drunk and I smoked some pot, and no one can tell that I am drunk or stoned, because I'm so fucking brilliant with my actions around people. I'm the friendliest girl you'll ever meet. Yea, I was out buying boots on that night, after I had smoked some pot and had a drink. I wasn't drunk just yet because I only started. I was so frustrated that evening because all day I had spent working on some sewing project which was really frustrating, I stabbed myself in the finger once. Maaaan, it was a real toughy. So I just threw everything down on the table after it was late enough, and made myself a drink, smoked a couple puffs, and then switched into my different personality, which is the result of my very delicate nature which is so sensitive to things like that.
And then my of ten years, lover came over and the first thing he was, was intimidated by me, because now I was moving like a fucking hurricane. Everything I did was so fast. He was, as usual, slow, gentle, relaxed, moving towards the fridge to find the vodka, and when he couldn't find it asked me where it was.
I had earlier been through the freezer looking for some herb which I store the bulk of there, and I moved things about so the vodka was hid. Then I flew/swam, hurricaned past him, and he moved right out of my way to stand where he was safe. So I pulled it out of the freezer and whipped out two glasses, made some drinks, without wasting a seconds time on anything trivial, all the motions were absolutely perfectly focused on the necessity of the moment. And so I sat down, and spoke some friendly words because I didn't want to spook him...and he relaxed.
Though I knew him for ten years, he still doesn't know me very well. It's because I hide almost everything. I know what most people are made of...fear...fear of knowing themselves, fear of this fear of that...and would perchance they see someone else's real self they become frightened since they are such a stranger to themselves they don't recognize someone who is being their normal self, which makes them wonder, what kind of stranger they thought they really knew haha all these years.
When you take the time to get to know yourself, then I am not a stranger to you anymore.
But I have such a fast way of making someone forget what they had just seen, so the memory doesn't linger. I take over their mind to focus it on the light things, the things that they love...that they can handle.
You know, I've been so frustrated lately. I must discover exactly why. What has been going on here? You see, it takes work to know thyself. You can't just wonder and then drop the answer on any ole thing you think. I mean, I really have to look inside to find what it is that is making me to behave this way. So Doc. Truly, you have been hellping me. I'm coming out and looking in... I see, love is everywhere. Oh seriously. I'm having fun. It is much more complicated than that.
Oh my God you should see my dreams. They are fucking Wicked! Just last night, I bit a black and white cats neck almost in half, killed it instantly, and then the lady who owned the cat who was going to blow me away through her kitchen window, I blew her away instead. I have been having supremely wicked dreams lately...and I must admit to you...I love it.
Alright, so I'll tell you this dream anyway. I was with about three men/guys. There was something that we were looking to catch. It was slippery and floated in the wind. I forget what it was. They were counting on me to catch it. It was an unusual composition.
We ended up in the front of someone's home where there was a tall green bush fence all round with the opening in front of the lawn down the sidewalk to the front of the house. We moved in from the right side looking at the picture, moving after that creature which had now settled on the lawn at that place. The damned thing was sitting there and as I went to go pick it up, it floated up and into a little pool of water in front of the house just before the porch in front of the window.
As I was going to take it, and it didn't move now, this mean looking, yet very pretty cat, which I knew had the siamese streak in it, but it was a regular black and white house cat, the owner must have trained its natural tendencies to kill, worse than a dog, it saw me from the window in the porch, and it walked through right at me then it bit my hand and held fast.
The thing is, the lady who was at the table in the window eating and looking with a smile on her face as the cat was biting me, I was motioning her to tell the thing to get off of me, and she kept smiling and slowly moving her head saying "no." I rolled my eyes in my head and looked at the guys wondering what I should do with this damn cat. Then in an instant I had my idea. I bit its neck fast and the thing almost broke in two. Instantly dead.
Then the lady who was sitting there looked startled, got up quickly grabbed a shot gun and then stood there aiming at me. The guys had said let's get out of here. But by now, I was changed. I was a different personality. I stood there still as her target knowing what would happen because I was making it happen. The lady shot at me and blew her head off. I had mind over matter made the gun to blow off backwards, into her own self. Then I smiled, turned away and walked toward the guys. We all headed out of that place with me saying, yea, let's get the fuck out of here before anyone comes.
Then I woke up. It felt great. That was undeserved. Just because we were on the property, doesn't mean we were doing anything wrong. So she could have motioned the cat with her command, to get off me. But she was delighting in the scene. And I was disgusted with her. Let alone the cat.
Anyway, those type of dreams have I been having. I think what's happening in there is that everything they send me to hurt me, I send it right back. It bit me, I send it a bite back... tripled. She takes a shot at me, she gets shot...tripled.
Well. Back to work.
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Temporary Loss of Insanity.
Hey Doc, they tell me you've healed, er, helped? a lot of beings.
Oh by the way. Who ever thinks I'm talking to them, I am. Accept it.
Yea. One month away from 2011, a crunch dead-line. But what is insanity? Time.
TIME DOES NOT EXIST!
We live in a prison. A bodily prison. We have been manipulated? And we have manipulated ourselves into this crunch. It's like an elephant when those circus trainers have whipped the fuck out of the sweet darling animal...and there's a humongous chain wrapped around its leg. It is trained to notice every time it thinks to defend its honour when it pulls on that chain and that chain wrenches it back ripping at its loins, its mind, its emotions. Then one day the circus trainer puts a piece of string around the elephants leg. But the elephant by this time has lost the spirit to protect its honour, and it does not walk away even though the string would break easily. It is now not any longer a free being. And not by choice....right? But by manipulation. Hm. That's a toughy.
So Doc. How are you going to help me? This elephant here forgot everything she came here to do. And it seems to me to be that the emotions which well up within me, when certain very unusual situations occur, and not often, it tears me apart and I lose my insanity. What do I do now? I have this valued and valuable sanity. Where do I go from here? Is there a way off planet Earth which I don't remember? And where IS my memory? How do I bring it forward for my soul self to mete it out? How WHEN WHERE WHAT! And why? What the fuck am I doing here? This is torture. It's so strange that I would actually haha put myself hahaha through something so horrible. Such as like falling. What do they mean when they say fall in love?
I think it means loss of sanity. Because love never falls. It is always upright and lovely. It is. Is all. So when I think about something and my heart starts to hurt, it makes me fall apart. But by falling apart, I gain my sanity back, and I realize it is truly an amazing maze. But the doors on each side are open. I can go into that maze and walk right through to the other door. I can walk into the back door, go through the maze backwards, and come out of the front door. What the fuck is love? Am I here to find out about something I thought I knew...and know virtually? or holographically, anything about? In other words, nothing.
Is this the extent of being imprisoned? I heard the invisible to my eyes, beings around me say, that I've got it all screwed up backwards. You know...there was something to my naming my anasnake Xanga blogsite Black Panther, the backward albino. Yea. They say stuff to me that they say to any being of light. I laugh at them. In many different tones of laugh, obviously. Yet, the strange thing is...it sounds like they're telling the truth, and I'm lau ff ing it off.
Now I know the meaning to the saying, "Blind as a Bat." They who know where they are going at night, do not have to see with light. Sanity my doves, could be more scary than insanity. What if, we are caught in the middle...the neutral zone between the two? Oooo....
Is it just me thinking that?
How can I un-think it?
Well, let me get another drink, and we'll think it off.
You know what? I think I'll go cook some stuff up in an aluminum pan. You know, like lemon juice and honey, to put in my vodka. It's nutritious.
Hahahahahaaa.
It's a mind game! What is? How many people have to focus their minds on 'believing' that aluminum metal destroys the memory...and that's why the Alzheimer's group doesn't go around advertising it, in case they stop getting customers. That's what, is the mind game. When people all put their minds together and whole heartedly believe together on something...it creates like a fence that keeps you in, and when this fence is up and you get a visitor like me in here, I have a tough time staying free. Well, let me go get that drink I was talking about. B3 right BAack.
You can always tell what's going on by being there. And being there means taking the risk of allowing yourself to know that you already know everything you need to know, to fully and victoriously, or is that, successfully...be there.
Being there takes courage though. '
And when it is tough, don't do it, because nothing is worth your time when it is too tough. Everyone likes the soft touch right? The soft meat? The easy deal? Right. So let's face it. Stop making excuses to please someone else's vanity or ego. Nothing is tough when you think it. It's so sssstrange...how thoughts work. Wow. I've been observing them for a long time now...and time does not exist....and just recently, lately...I have noticed that all the responses to my thoughts are much faster, quick at the draw and the shot. They come back to back.
Now. Could that be the result of this brainwashing about what's going on. I mean, is knowledge...or that is...supposed knowledge, really another manipulation? What are words? Are they not the meaning behind them in symbols? Wherefore, god...yes...I do have to get closer to my hare and unclog all that gook that has clogged it. Heart. Next year is the year of the Hare.
Now you understand why i cherish my privacy. Even Prince wasn't a prude about it. Nevertheless, hm...his performance is wanting. Hahahaha...uh k. Y kick a dog when it's down already? That's like uh-uh-uh, ego, vanity. And we all have it. Go ahead, go kick your dads gravestone and thank him for everything you dislike about your existence. Haa hahahaa... sorry. could not resist.
It isn't daddy's fault though. I tell ya. There IS a Mother. Lol.
The good shit lolly pop.
hmhmhmhm//// ah. should i appologize agin.
People fuck you, fuck this. Eat it, inhale it, smell it? taste it? Whatever you desire. What is the truth? I'm still wondering how to get to the center of that lollypop Mr. Ow./
Doc. I am done. These fuckin beings all around me...are my equal. I must go. How do I leave planet Earth again in case of emergency?
Oh by the way. Who ever thinks I'm talking to them, I am. Accept it.
Yea. One month away from 2011, a crunch dead-line. But what is insanity? Time.
TIME DOES NOT EXIST!
We live in a prison. A bodily prison. We have been manipulated? And we have manipulated ourselves into this crunch. It's like an elephant when those circus trainers have whipped the fuck out of the sweet darling animal...and there's a humongous chain wrapped around its leg. It is trained to notice every time it thinks to defend its honour when it pulls on that chain and that chain wrenches it back ripping at its loins, its mind, its emotions. Then one day the circus trainer puts a piece of string around the elephants leg. But the elephant by this time has lost the spirit to protect its honour, and it does not walk away even though the string would break easily. It is now not any longer a free being. And not by choice....right? But by manipulation. Hm. That's a toughy.
So Doc. How are you going to help me? This elephant here forgot everything she came here to do. And it seems to me to be that the emotions which well up within me, when certain very unusual situations occur, and not often, it tears me apart and I lose my insanity. What do I do now? I have this valued and valuable sanity. Where do I go from here? Is there a way off planet Earth which I don't remember? And where IS my memory? How do I bring it forward for my soul self to mete it out? How WHEN WHERE WHAT! And why? What the fuck am I doing here? This is torture. It's so strange that I would actually haha put myself hahaha through something so horrible. Such as like falling. What do they mean when they say fall in love?
I think it means loss of sanity. Because love never falls. It is always upright and lovely. It is. Is all. So when I think about something and my heart starts to hurt, it makes me fall apart. But by falling apart, I gain my sanity back, and I realize it is truly an amazing maze. But the doors on each side are open. I can go into that maze and walk right through to the other door. I can walk into the back door, go through the maze backwards, and come out of the front door. What the fuck is love? Am I here to find out about something I thought I knew...and know virtually? or holographically, anything about? In other words, nothing.
Is this the extent of being imprisoned? I heard the invisible to my eyes, beings around me say, that I've got it all screwed up backwards. You know...there was something to my naming my anasnake Xanga blogsite Black Panther, the backward albino. Yea. They say stuff to me that they say to any being of light. I laugh at them. In many different tones of laugh, obviously. Yet, the strange thing is...it sounds like they're telling the truth, and I'm lau ff ing it off.
Now I know the meaning to the saying, "Blind as a Bat." They who know where they are going at night, do not have to see with light. Sanity my doves, could be more scary than insanity. What if, we are caught in the middle...the neutral zone between the two? Oooo....
Is it just me thinking that?
How can I un-think it?
Well, let me get another drink, and we'll think it off.
You know what? I think I'll go cook some stuff up in an aluminum pan. You know, like lemon juice and honey, to put in my vodka. It's nutritious.
Hahahahahaaa.
It's a mind game! What is? How many people have to focus their minds on 'believing' that aluminum metal destroys the memory...and that's why the Alzheimer's group doesn't go around advertising it, in case they stop getting customers. That's what, is the mind game. When people all put their minds together and whole heartedly believe together on something...it creates like a fence that keeps you in, and when this fence is up and you get a visitor like me in here, I have a tough time staying free. Well, let me go get that drink I was talking about. B3 right BAack.
You can always tell what's going on by being there. And being there means taking the risk of allowing yourself to know that you already know everything you need to know, to fully and victoriously, or is that, successfully...be there.
Being there takes courage though. '
And when it is tough, don't do it, because nothing is worth your time when it is too tough. Everyone likes the soft touch right? The soft meat? The easy deal? Right. So let's face it. Stop making excuses to please someone else's vanity or ego. Nothing is tough when you think it. It's so sssstrange...how thoughts work. Wow. I've been observing them for a long time now...and time does not exist....and just recently, lately...I have noticed that all the responses to my thoughts are much faster, quick at the draw and the shot. They come back to back.
Now. Could that be the result of this brainwashing about what's going on. I mean, is knowledge...or that is...supposed knowledge, really another manipulation? What are words? Are they not the meaning behind them in symbols? Wherefore, god...yes...I do have to get closer to my hare and unclog all that gook that has clogged it. Heart. Next year is the year of the Hare.
Now you understand why i cherish my privacy. Even Prince wasn't a prude about it. Nevertheless, hm...his performance is wanting. Hahahaha...uh k. Y kick a dog when it's down already? That's like uh-uh-uh, ego, vanity. And we all have it. Go ahead, go kick your dads gravestone and thank him for everything you dislike about your existence. Haa hahahaa... sorry. could not resist.
It isn't daddy's fault though. I tell ya. There IS a Mother. Lol.
The good shit lolly pop.
hmhmhmhm//// ah. should i appologize agin.
People fuck you, fuck this. Eat it, inhale it, smell it? taste it? Whatever you desire. What is the truth? I'm still wondering how to get to the center of that lollypop Mr. Ow./
Doc. I am done. These fuckin beings all around me...are my equal. I must go. How do I leave planet Earth again in case of emergency?
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Hey dudes, all you ng ones. Here's some 'gyood' music.
Monday, December 6, 2010
All this freedom! And what to do with it?
"Let me be baby, let me be."
As you all should...be yourself. Ultra alive.
Never Gonna Stop
As you all should...be yourself. Ultra alive.
Never Gonna Stop
The monotony in existence can be broken up by some godly imaging.
Then you can have real fun.
Use your imagination...Doc.
This idea is sufficiently plausible, in an attempt to account
for the phenomenon... the sickness and the sentence of blood.
I could no longer struggle. Every moment threatened to be the last.
There was pain, dizziness, and profuse bleeding at the pores.
How is this possible? The transmission was transfusing.
In a moment, the sober eye of reason would detect
a vibration in the flesh, creeping incoherent,
bearin' no mark of a human hand.
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This here already is a chemical test.
as for the rest
who
sleeps? (who cares)
specially whayn yowr cassl is bout to blow.
Everyboudy now is, everybaudy knows...it comes and goes. Real time. Love you to 'death'. ha. great stuff
andy stuffed a pigeon once. His name was ..hm.. still is, Kurt Coalbain. We are still here. Am I not a bit random?
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The New Experience.
Today is Monday December 6, two thousand oh, about ten....and tomorrow, it will be eleven. 11:11 U know? This is the new experience...besides this being my first blog here. A jump away from myspace which is no longer My Space...it is some "my" blank. Fill in the blank.
"My Fuckheads" There you go. That's the new place. Heh!
So. I'm giving this new experience a whirl. There is going to be some i i i i i in ter est ing things to talk about. This IS the NEW experience...and I want to fill you in on what I... am... experiencing...
Well first of all. Rob Zombie. The new lyrics. To me they're new. I just found them. They're called:
Transylvanian Transmissions
{i was waiting for you
Tell me what's wrong
Oh it's nothing it's just a readjustment
Your eyes
Tell me what's wrong
Oh it's nothing it's just a readjustment
Your eyes}
This idea is sufficiently plausible in an attempt to account
For the phenomenon the sickness and the sentence of blood
I could no longer struggle every moment threatened to be the last
There was pain dizziness and profuse bleeding at the pores
How is this possible? the transmission was transfusing
In a moment the sober eye of reason would detect
A vibration in the flesh creeping incoherent
Bearin' no mark of a human hand
{the vision comes and goes
But tonight i saw very clearly
The vision comes and goes
But tonight i saw it very clearly
Very deeply}
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It's all about Blood. You know that the word blood has different meanings. For one, it could be, my brothah ya know? Blood brothers. But since I'm a sistah, it's about brother and sister kind of relationship. Two beings who know each other so well, and living in the closest kind of way, having similar DNA and lifestyle. Well they are the same everywhere. Everyone around you in the whooooole and on the whole planet and all around it, are from the same place. So there you go. It's now about communication.
How do brothah and sistah get along? When they get along well, then the composition means work it. You take two chemical components and either they mix well, or they don't fit. The thing is, when you work all the chemicals, as in chemistry...then you can find unique creations where everything blends. Yet you have to work on a higher level. Your mind doesn't have all the answers in it. It's like a receptacle. It collects what is sent to it, in a specific way that you use for your conscious living at this point. Nevertheless you need to allow your Spirit to move through you, so that your mind can function with your heart and your body in the proper way. So when brother and sister get along and they have a unique purpose that has been set out for them to accomplish together and with others, then you know what I'm talking about when I say Blood.
There's more. But right now...I'm busy. I have some detailed sewing to do and that stuff mmh, takes hours. So. Sew. Bye.
Talk later.
Black...
Ultra Black.
P.s. Man. The music sounds excellent too. Yep. He's on track.
Transylvanian Transmission Song
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Transylvanian Transmission Song
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