Happy Birthday Molly!

      This is some real good music. Haha. oh man. the inflections in his voice. Sooo talented.

Lol. Check it out people.











You know, you never know when someone you love is going to go away.... but you've got to be ready. Until we have conquered death, just be ready.

It's a Quiet Eastern Night.

    In the western zone.

Full Moon Music

What Colour Are Your Eyes?

Musical Heart Mind Balance.

You know, you're a Lion to me.

Right Brain Left Brain Balance.

Pleased To Meet You.

I would have sympathy for the devil too, if he had to have an enema. The ultimate enemy! Hhhaahahaaa. If someone porked you up the butthole, with no sympathy, you'd have sympathy for them, after all, empathy is part of the structure if you're to avoid an enema yourself.

Vermillion.

The Three Sisters.

What is Morphic Resonance, by Rupert Sheldrake.

The forces guide the energy, therefore, if you are energy as a body but within that body is a force, then you must go into your force and guide that energy where you want it to be, as in, imagine it, create a blueprint, then go into your body, your energy, and live it out to see how the force has changed.

Big Hat.

                                                                 "Dope Hat"

i peek into the hole, i struggle for control
the children love the show, but they fail to see the anguish in my eyes
fail to see the anguish in my eyes
i scratch around the brim, i let my mind give in
the crowd begins to grin, but they seem to scream when darkness fills my eyes
seem to scream when darkness fills my eyes, it's no surprise
fail to see the tragic, turn it into magic
my big top tricks will always make you happy, but we all know the hat is wearing me
my bag is in the hat, it's filled with this and that
my vision's getting fat, the rabbit's just a monkey in disguise
stars and pills and needles dance before our eyes
they will bite the hand if it is slower than the quickness of thier scrutinizing eyes
fail to see the tragic, turn it into magic
my big top tricks will always make you happy, but we all know the hat is wearing me
chicanery will always make you happy, but we all know the hat is wearing me.

Full Soul In The Body.

COSMIC AWARENESS:

This Awareness wishes to call attention to the nature of the soul. This Awareness wishes to bring light and attention to the process, the physical body, and what the energetic bodies go through in the process of transition. This Awareness wishes to elaborate on this process at this time. Humanity is ready to understand at a deeper level how the soul interacts with the human form in third dimensional reality, and the mechanics involved in the transmission of knowledge and energy from one dimensional frequency to another.

This Awareness perceives it is understood that the human form can exist within third dimensional reality while vibrating at a frequency that can range from low to high. These entities that vibrate at a low frequency are often heavily encumbered with dense energy karma, and as a result of entering into incarnate form with this vibratory frequency, these entities also often attract a great deal of dark energy, dark entities that attach themselves as parasites. This Awareness will indicate as well that being of a higher frequency, one can also possess a great deal of high energy parasitic attachment.  This Awareness is seeking to engage the conscience of the membership with the understanding that just as the intestinal landscape of the human body possesses a great deal of bacteria, there also is type of flora that can assist in stabilizing and energizing one’s field while in the third dimension, or can assist the destabilizing of the energy body while in the third dimension. This knowledge is well known and readily available to those in positions of control. This Awareness observes it is now time for this information to become available to the general public, to any and all that would like to understand, and through understanding, take responsibility and action in engaging in the ownership of one’s domain.

This Awareness observes that there are many souls passing at this time. Some have waited a great deal of time. Others are leaving without notice. This Awareness wishes to indicate that the energetic body consists of light that exists within a matrix. These matrices are responsible for collecting specific types of light. There are many layers, and as each collects that aspect of light, emotion in physical form is reflected within the core. Thus one is able to observe a physical form.

As a soul exists outside of space and time, its presence in the third dimensional reality is

multifaceted. It does not possess a single apparatus of entrance and exit. This Awareness does acknowledge there is what could be called and has been called the Gateway of the Soul, through the reflective chambers of the heart. This is an esoteric reference to a very physical process, and by ‘physical’ this Awareness is implying a third dimensional process. This explanation of the presence of the soul as being outside of time and space and therefore present within the form of the physical incarnate body, is to allow for greater understanding; that the processes of metabolization of energy through the matrices of the form allow an unfolding, an absorption by the soul to occur.

This Awareness indicates that one of the results of the Controllers’ efforts to maintain a dense fog of

disconnection and inertia among the population is that these matrices do not become fully activated during the maturation process. Up until three months ago, it was nearly impossible to activate these matrices without very specific knowledge being retained and brought forward through direct connection with higher spiritual energy. As a result of a transition that has occurred recently, this is no longer the case. It is now available for all of humanity, along the entire scale of frequency to begin the activation of these matrices within the energetic body, so that the soul is able to receive the nutritional component of its physical experience prior to the transition into what is called death. This Awareness indicates that these matrices having the ability to be turned on, but this does not mean that

humanity will do so. It is the intention of this Awareness to allow the awareness of this option, this

possibility to become fully present within one’s awareness.

This Awareness acknowledges this message contains a great deal of information. One could say it

is ‘loaded,’ meaning there are many layers, and there is a great deal of information that is not included. This is purposeful. This Awareness would encourage contemplation upon this information. Questions may arise. This opening message is now complete.

QUESTIONER:

Thank you Awareness. That indeed was very deep information. I have a few questions to make sure I

understood. So the more light that a soul absorbs through the matrices, the higher the frequency

becomes. Is that correct?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

This is correct to a degree.

QUESTIONER:

Okay, so the problem has been that the soul has not been able to absorb the higher light as it should

because of what the Controllers have done to block this, is that right?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

This Awareness wishes to clarify. The matrices of the energetic body collect, and without the option of transferring this data or this light to the soul, it is held until that time of an option becomes available. So the matrices are providing multiple benefits to the ability to incarnate completely into the physical form. Their first benefit is that they allow for the structures of physicality to manifest within the complex structures of time and space. Secondly, they act as a holding with the ability of immediate transference, but in the absence of that ability they will hold the data until the human form is complete in its process of living. At such a time during the process of disincarnation, or un- carnating, the matrices begin an elaborate process of release. These energies are then released to the soul. The soul may become nourished from the experience gained, from the light of the data and the emotion accrued. This process will take place regardless of the frequency of the energy obtained. This is to say that even the soul that is incarnate, the low frequency nature is also absorbing light and data and emotional energy that is necessary for that soul to continue its growth process. Does this clarification allow for deeper understanding?

QUESTIONER:

Somewhat. Could Awareness describe these matrices?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

A geometric configuration called the Flower of Life is a perfect example of these matrices. They are the energetic filaments that create density. Light is attracted and held by them and reflected out, thus we have time and space wherein you can experience reality.

QUESTIONER:

Does it intersect with an aura?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

It is the aura. It is all-pervasive; they are unseen, yet still follow the intricate lines of a matrix. All energy is moving, and all energy is following the breathing in and out of a matrix. It is the nature of the fractal. It is the nature of the kaleidoscope. Matter does not just hang suspended by nothing or move without direction. All of energy, all of life is adhering to the finite pattern provided by the creational force of that space.

QUESTIONER:

I understand better now. So what has happened recently with the new energies is that the soul is able

to absorb these energies more readily instead of waiting until we disincarnate? Is that correct?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

This Awareness observes your question is valid. This Awareness is present to answer these questions.

This Awareness indicates your questions are timely. The transition which has occurred is that now all of humanity, whether they are awake or not, has available to them the ability to directly interface with the soul in the specific process of transferring the accumulated data energy, light, that is the nourishment of the soul, to the soul with an immediacy. The previous circumstance, which has been created by multiple factors—not just the Controllers, but that is a large portion of it—previous to the Cosmic Wave arriving, those souls incarnated by choice or circumstance in a way that disallowed their spiritual centers to awaken, and they were unable to awaken the aspect of these matrices of their form through the ability to process, to transfer information and light to the soul. It was a function that was turned off, one could say.

QUESTIONER:

So this is why we are in a position now to be able to create our reality as quickly as we want it, depending on how much we understand and awaken to the fact that we can put this light right into our soul right now, in real time. Is that correct?

COSMIC AWARENESS:

This is correct. Yes.

Oh I love you Cosmic Awareness! Thank you SO much!

It's Such A Lovely Day...

DIScernMENT.

     That's right. Removing some things, allowing other things.

Publish This.

Oh my Locomotive..you turn me on. you get me going. you fuck me up, and you make me sane again. How many times must I tell you I love you, before it subsides?




Oh my Locomotive. . . what you do to me.  What do I do with you? My Early Morning Mafia Man.




Well said Ro Zo .  Tripled. Eathe world. Mhm.

It's like making love to a Serpent. Can you give it to her? I'm so huuuungry all the time. Never has this hunger been staved. It always holds and holds onto me, without any prompting from my part, either! Baby this huuuunger is sooo strong. Feed me. Your love feeds me. There is nothing better than your love to stave that hunger off. Might as well, stick to you.

Time To Relax

Research Into Nazi Vril Society.

Admiral Byrd & The Existence of Hollow Earth, To Do With Ibez, Colonel Fawcett's Great Objective.

Maria Orsitsch

The Aldebaran Mystery

Vril, The Power of the Coming Race

The Black Sun and the Vril Society

Thule Gesellschaft and the Vril Society

Thule Gesellschaft and the Vril Society - Black Sun

Banned Occult Secrets of the Vril Society

Ancient Antarctica Was As Warm As Today's California

Aerospace Engineer Veteran Blows Whistle On UFOs

The Vril Society

Black Sun, Aryan Cults, Esoteric Nazism, And The Politics Of Identity, by Nicholas Goodrick-Clarke (PDF)

A Mysterious Spectre

31:00 of this beautiful video up top....... Check this out. hmhmhm....


"Our Present."

A New Way Of Communicating!

     This is really interesting. Last night just before I went to bed, I was sitting reading when an image appeared before me about two feet from me, suspended in mid air, and just a quick show of it. It was a triangle without a bottom. So, it was like an arrow pointing upward. And it was whitish blue grey, so it reminded me of that essence that the psychics use to materialize at their seances in the 1920s, consisting of that type of material. Then in a very short while, almost immediately after that, I saw a straight line, very straight, north to south, and it was off to the left of where that other symbol had shown itself. It consisted of the same fabric, but it seemed a bit shinier, just a touch more, and very straight. I don't know how to describe how straight it looked.

And then, this morning, before I got up from bed, as I lay there, I saw the exact same thing in my mind! But both together. It was alive. I could see it moving. It had life to it. So I wondered what that could have been, because I just saw a similar thing last night.

Then, today, I'm reading this man Alex P's blog where he's talking about telepathic development. And he has many links to other sites from what he's talking about. So I go on those sites, check it out...see if I need to bookmark it to read later, because I would like to finish the entire post that he wrote. And then one link took me to a new site which oh my goodness! those signs I had seen yesterday and this morning, are in there! and they're explained! When I saw that, I wondered if maybe the dot had shown up too, but I wasn't aware of its presence because I didn't know what I was looking at to begin with!

Ok, this is the man's blog that I was reading: Alex P... Telepathy

And this is the link to the site where I saw that symbol described: Ideogram For Tai Chi & The True Hidden Meaning Of The Characters.


Fascinating!

I wish I knew some Chinese people, because then I could ask them what that sign meant. Since the sign I saw had a straight line going up and down, not left and right. The arrow showed up first, then the line next. In the vision this morning, they showed up together, one next to the other. I wonder what that means.

Another thing has to be said. I was reading some totally other books the past few days, and this guy Alex P's site I added a long time ago, perhaps a year ago, and haven't been back to read any of his writings. But today, for some reason I was having trouble with my youtube and so went looking for the problem to solve it, when I encountered his works again and became interested so I started reading. The problem fixed by itself, and now I am delving into this material. Very fascinating stuff.

Also, last night, while not being able to sleep very well, I got up for a short while, and heard one of the beings say to me that I am a different person now. And reading that whole page, it says it right at the bottom: "This accomplishment leads to a clear and different way of being."

Oh kay. This is a very fascinating website. Beautiful if you may ask me. But wicked, if you don't know to.

Hahahaa. Here it is!


The Belzian



A good evening...



Anyway, that is stupid. Belz is NOT, what the fuck's his name? uhm, oh yea, that one, enlil. He is not him. Someone must have lied to that person. You certainly aren't close to Belz if that's what you think. Hahahaa. Fuckin hilarious. Oh, and that site, hahahahaa. Someone who wants to hahaha worship Satan. How hilarious. They don't know about that one, let alone Belz. So anyway. I warned you. That site is wicked because it's full of lies.

Hey, Oh Won't You Play....

I just had to say hello. Because it's Saturday. Somewhere anyway.






Oh my gaud the voice is so jewel-like. So beautiful! Listen to the priests in the background. They are not loud. Their echo is what you'd expect from a tape recorder at the back of the church. But in comes magfuckifiscent presence from another world, and oh my gawd, the fucking accoustics on that, is so special. Love it. When that voice comes to a pitch, it is pitch... pitch black ah, so pretty!

Anyway. There's another video we need for compare. Not that anything is ever comparable...nevertheless, fucking have fun hahahaa....






Oh my gosh, yummy voice. That creature when it's entering into her, you could hear the inflections of the difference in the voice, of the breathing....  Check it out!



It's beautiful how loud they are, how they choke on us, but we choke on them too, so there, we're even..... Steven. Hahahaaa.a...



Ah, such beautiful beings!





That icy breath that whispers screams of pain. Yea. That's nice. Ever watch Session 9? Or Basic Instinct? Same thing. Just different scenarios. Who are we to judge a person. We don't take a person .... personally.   We do our career. Rear hahaha little children to be better than the 'normal.'


Ask Wiki pedia. They know everything.

My Personal Diary. Because it's not a Journal.

      Belialith. What a strange name to have. Even as a nickname. But I didn't pick it. In fact, I was always trying to hide my 'other' nature. Nevertheless, it hunts you down. The truth, whatever it is, cannot be hidden...or at least, not forever. My two sisters, my best friends...both read romance novels. If it wasn't for my older sister Molly bugging me to read this and that book that she just loved, I would never have read any romance novels. "We are not lovers, we are not romantics, we are here to serve you." Marilyn Manson lyrics, spells it out perfectly. But I only read the really short ones. And there was one that I liked. The guys name in it was Tamar. But that was it. No more. And then one day my sister read this really thick romance novel called, "Angelique and the Demon" and she told me I remind her of a character in the book, hahaha, she wouldn't tell me which one, but that I remind her of one of them and that I should read the book to find out. I picked it up, looked at how thick it was and threw it back on the bed saying, no thanks. I ended up going to Toronto when I was 20, a month before my 21st birthday. Then my little sister Rosy would write me letters and she wrote a poem that freaked me out because I thought she was an innocent little angel. It was called "The 80 Legions of Belialith" and she told me it was about me. I thought it so scary, like oh my goodness, my cover might be blown. I mean, even though I have nothing to do with demons or legions, and I had never heard of the name Belialith before....I just did know that I was pure black, and I had to hide that at all cost. But the man who I was living with in Toronto said he was born with a veil over his face, which makes him a seer. He was part Scottish Jew--part Haitain, father/mother respectively. And as soon as he saw me walk into his restaurant he stared at me. Then, when I didn't have a place to stay, he offered my his place until I could get myself a place of my own. We ended up becoming lovers for six months. He said to me that I'm a goddess, and it got me frightened, because I wondered how much he really saw. I just brushed it off, tried to hide it all behind a dumb cover. But now my little sister was sending me a poem that she wrote, about me? Oh my goodness. I did feel a bit hunted, but I knew I could hide whatever I wanted to stay hidden. I had to. I had a job to do. After six months, something really strange happened at the place where Gregory McClelland and I lived. Something in the backyard one night was making possessed sounds. Only a tree branch was moving in the tree, but there was nothing there. The next door neighbors were all dressed in long black gowns with a red mark at the neck. They came out trying to calm the thing that was crying so much. I was upset that they were even talking to him, because they didn't know what he was going through, and I sure felt like I did. But that's another story. So after that event, where Gregory for the first time in six months didn't come home all night, I decided to leave the place. Went to Ottawa, and other strange things happened, so I only stayed there one month before I went back to Windsor. That's when my little sister told me she read the book that Molly had read and said the character in there reminded her of me, and that I should read the book. I really did not want to read a romance novel. But now, since I was bugged by Molly and Rosy, and that poem she sent me, well, I had to reconsider and I read the book. It was years later, when I finally took the name as a nickname for my blogging purposes. It was only because such a respected person as Gurdjieff wrote a book called Beelzebub's Tales to His Grandson, that I felt, if I used the name Gurdjieff in there somewhere, it would make sense, since I'm a female, he was a male, so the name Belialith wouldn't be so harsh, seeing there's a story behind it, like Gurdjieff...a moral behind the story. Not just some cruel creepy person who does dull things. 

It is the little things. The little things that make up a large story. And the only way to find the truth, is to look deep at all those little things. Don't look too closely too quickly, otherwise you'll shut the book in your face and go ignorantly around, like your weak ego decides. But look at it every day a little at a time, and you will begin to see the largeness behind it, which becomes easier to handle and deal with after you've grown a bit stronger. Don't be frightened, I tell myself. It's only me. Hahaha. So my sister Rosy, the younger one got breast cancer in her late 30s. Then Molly, my older sister got it too. Rosy passed away in 2012, and six months later, Molly passed away in 2013. Rosy's body was buried on the Autumn Equinox, and Molly's body was buried on the Spring Equinox. You can see how that leaves the Winter and Summer all to me, huh? Hm. Think about the difficulty in seeing those little things presented before your eye? How would you deal with that? Hm. Anyway...

I'll continue this story later. I want to go to sleep now.

For The Love Of Life. Happy Birthday Mother!

m     my friend suggested this song....





Here's the lightning strikes picture with a Banana Spider in it's lightning web.

Happy Birthday Mommy.

     With so many Carnations, and Incarnations, who's to know who is who and what is what?









It's between me myself and I, and if you want to join me, I'm grateful. You see, my mom is dead, but her birthday is today, so she left a residue which says, she's really not dead, just away for the meantime...



Hey Mum, remember when you told me that Prince is a black man after I showed you the cover of the Rolling Stone, and I was dense enough to not know what I was looking at was the truth? And you said...."what do you want with a Black man?" and I said, "What? A Black man? Is that what he is?" And you replied in Silence, and I knew I had been deceived. So I removed Prince Rogers Nelson from my life on account of your words alone. Remember Mother? Well, I have someone else to bring to your attention which I need to know about. This man Gandy, Mommy, is who I want to know about. Please, fill me in. Thank you.









To all the others seeeing this..... so, I'm innocent...or naive you say. Hmhmhm. Fer sure. What ever you like. My mommy is a devil, angel or not, it don't matter, you are forever left behind where my mother shines. SO crop your circles, fuck your squares, my mother may be intelligent, but it's up to me to go where, angels fear to tread. Good BYE.


Now he's not black. Or IS he?


Mommy?




(of course, I'm enthralled. But I only have so much time to live on this planet. And I would like to meet those whom I already know. But, if you don't remember me, then I'll refresh your memory outside of the Ball. I won't do you wrong, if you don't do me wrong. But if you don't do me justice, how the hell do you think I'll be able to deal with you? I am my Mother's seed. I shall prosper and fair well. Anyone who wants blessings, just come to my door and I'll help you. So...








What the fuck do you want, Katherine?

Cough....

The Emerald Tablets of Thoth The Atlantean (Audio) by Josh Reeves

The Joker.

      This video is freaky. At the point of 2:53 is when it begins. And ends, I think. It's so interesting.


Check it out.














The difference between Sound and Silence.





You know what I dislike very much? Those stupid sounds that the machines make when someone is out there in the neighborhood cutting their grass. Where are our inventions? Those nice peaceful quiet machines that do the work clean and quiet? Hm?

Plato's Timaeus & Tom Bearden's Electromagnetic Generator, Comparison.

Comparison of Timaeus by Plato, in the design of the "Being" ....
To Tom Bearden's design of the Motionless Electromagnetic Generator Patent.


Plato's Timaeus

Tom Bearden Motionless Electromagnetic Generator

The Nagual Tonal Balance.

      The Tonal is the physical structure. The Nagual is the Spiritual structure. The Nagual or Essence is the Aether energy, and they, the powers that were, have been using, stealing, oil from the planet Earth (its blood system) in order to run the monetary system, which is representative of physical. They didn't want us close to the Spirit side of things, nor did they want us even knowing about it, hence they've burned up all the important libraries, destroyed the indigenous people who live by Spiritual Principles, and created a mass media system to keep us brainwashed into thinking only the physical aspects...that is... the beast. So, in order to balance that stuff, we need to awaken to the Spirit side of the structure here because it is necessary to have a balance since all matter and Spirit have been and will continue to work together until we are informed it's over. But until then, there is a structure which must be performed, and they cannot interfere in that because the consequences to it is, you're not dealing with me anymore, you're dealing with your Maker.

So. Let us now balance the Spirit into place.

Thank you very much!



Balance.

AHHHHhhhhaaa.... Beautiful!

Tom Morrow They Come

   Let's enjoy some beautiful music.

Hell Raiser....

      This is such a great movie. The Bridge of Spies.



Too many words necessary to describe the short sentences writ. So I'll just leave it up to your imagination, Doc.
















The Spa who loved me.
Ava's Possessions Group meeting.

The Dense Equals The Light.

     Sharon Stone is like Bat Man. They both have the same capabilities.

Look at, for example, this little child with his parents, suddenly feeling unwell, wanting to leave the 'theatre' and therefore complaining to his helpers. They leave, get killed, and the killer, gets caught and fucked up  the yazzoo....and the rest goes along. The child is so, oh, vuuulnerable. Oh sweeet  little boy, who lost his parents in a straaaange accident. Aw. Aw-aw. Anyway. Bat man is like Catherine Tramell.


Batman Begins.



Kat Woman Finishes.

Yea, well look at it. She blew em up in a boat. And he blew em up in a back alley.
Duh.

My Possessions.

      Bye Captain. I'll lock up.
O.K. Admiral.

Did you see that movie AvaMaria's Possessions? Yea, well, that's where those words of inspiration appeared. Bye Captain. I'll lock up. Yea. No doubt. And like the Oracle, I'll keep it shut. But, in the opposite direction. Of course, you want to know what movie I'm talking about. First. Remember all those other posts I left? Remember how you just didn't like some of them? Well....you have to have some discipline and go through all of them, before you can even get glimpse of the Truth. Because the truth is hard to speak, and even showing it in symbols is tough...but, it is not impossible.

Here's the movie. Don't watch it.

See it! Whith yer own Eye.


Click here for further directions

Spader webbed picture...


    Black is beautiful
      But British is Better

(look at the tie. Looks like a snake wrapped around his neck).


You summoned the demon, you woke the dark, you have the mark.

Heart is Where Love Is Found, Not The Mind or Thoughts or Head.

Wow. And I was such a rebel for so long... for what? Lol.

Now I find it.

Mind cannot handle Love. Only Heart can. So! Take if from me. If you're coming from a place of 'mind' then you need to learn about the "heart." Because otherwise, you're going to deal with so many unnecessary painful and even unworthy situations to go through...dead situations, in other words. Like sex without love is really dead. Hahaa. So take it from one who learned the hard way. Check it out. Put your focus every day, a little bit in the heart area. Conscious focus on that part of your body. You'll get all kinds of neat and interesting experiences. The more you do it the better you get at it, the more valuable it becomes. Here's what I was listening to when this enlightenment came to me.








It's so obvious. But for someone who doesn't have a clue, it's not so easy to figure out. It's like living in the darkness of thoughts, and then one day you wake up to the light of the Sun, your Heart.